DJ Immortal's blog: "KC's Poetry"

This Vision I see myself, Hanging like a wretched wreck, A belly full of pills, And a broken neck. Lonely and forlorn, Stranded in my mind, My soul ripped And torn. What does it matter, That my life is no more, I see no one around Around my pool of blood on the floor. This vision of death is What I see. This vision of death Consuming me. Take this vision from me If you can, Take this vision from me Before the blood runs out of me Like the draining sand. This beautiful vision of death.

When I look around, All I see is blackness. Bleakness, nothingness. Is anything real? Is anything real but this Pain that I feel? Death. Death is real. Cold morbid death, A release from the pain. A release from earthbound torments That wrack this body endlessly. Merciful death. If only I could catch you up, And snuggle cozily in your warm embrace. Death is real. Death and pain, And of the two I choose death. A ceasing of being in this forsaken barrenness That we call life. Death is real to me. Maybe too real it might seem. (c.)(2007) By KC Z.

Darkness overtakes my soul, Like a thief in the night Come to steal my gold. Veins of madness, twist and turn, Weaving through this darkness On a collision course to crash and burn. Brink of depair, pain all too real, The darkness sinks in further, Covering everything to reveal. Like a sweet lover, this madness joins With the darkness, licking the wounds, And covering my loins. Death is sure to follow suit, This maddening darkness Soul to root. Welcome to my hell. (c.)2007 by KCZ

Gone Dark stormy nights in my soul, Whirlwind desires going out of control. Heavy hearted, pained and confused, Lost and tormented, no one to turn to. My mind keeps racing, My heart has lost its way, Lost and abandoned, Don't know what to do or say. Love is lost, Love is not real, Love has no hope, For a soul that refuses to heal. Shackled to the walls, Of this inner prison cell, Alone in the dark Death tolls the bell. Salvation is naught, Hope is all but gone, Nothing left except Sweet pain song.

DARKNESS The darkness settles in And consumes my very being. No more light inside this inner cell Only coldness and the burning fires of hell. Love won, and love lost once again. But my love will never see the light of day, Because the darkness comes And drives it away. I've learned my lesson and learned it well There is no true love, There is no peace Only pain, sorrow, and lonliness Closing in on me. So i welcome with open arms This darkness that has now consumed me, No more will i feel this way, As death comes to take all the pain away. So hear me now, All those with open ears, As i set in motion This one last act of quenching my fears. Death will come swiftly and without reprise, As you stare at this pitiful wretched body With wide open eyes. Keeping in mind that it was you that i had in mind.

These Walls These walls i'm locked behind Reach from floor to sky, I built it myself, My pain sealed inside. I'll never get out, You'll never get in, Though we pound on the walls They're hard as steel. It's too high to climb, Just give up, I'm here to stay So don't even try, You can't make this pain go away. These walls, Prison and sanctuary, Never to be hurt again, Yet enprisoned from love come my way.

Hope Dark mists swirl Through ever bending trees. Dark currents run pulsing Through my head with no ease. Angry waves of despair Crash upon me with no relief. Crimson floods flow forth From my wounded soul, The pain never letting go. The mind's despair, The heart's defeat, The hope of love Has all but vanished from me.

THE FEAR OF LOVE Mortal coils Strike our symbiant being, Bringing forth tears of blood, Remembering long lost loves and losses. Making us weak in our knees, Nightmares to our dreams, Trembling in our fear. Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, Our souls laid bare in love’s brilliant light. Screaming from the inside, whimpers issue forth. Panic setting in, heart pounding in our ears, Wanting to take the leap, yet frozen in fear. Hands issue forth waiting to be taken, But do we dare. Do we dare take the challenge, The challenge to conquer our greatest fear, The fear of love.

Goodbye The darkness of my heart, The sadness of my life, Always pushing and striving, But nothing ever goes right. Who are you? You are no one to me. You may be in control now, But someday I might be. You fuck me, I'll fuck you, And the darkness deepens As the hardness does too. Keep pushing, And maybe I'll break. Keep driving me deeper Behind these walls of no escape. Locked in here, I'm safe and sound, You cannot hurt me more, So just go away and don't come back around. In here I live, In here I die, Safe from the pain, Safe from the lies. Goodbye!

Broken Heart, Leaky Eye Broken heart, Leaky eye, Too much pain In my mind. Can't get away Can't break free From the overwhelming Sense of misery. Too much to handle, I cannot bear, Want to crawl up in a ball And just stay lying there. Want to give up, Want to die, Life's not worth living, Being this empty inside. Let me die! Let me die! Let me die!