Darkheart's blog: "Just thoughts"

Just my luck I thought as I answered the phone,just when the movie was geting to the good part. I said hello,lucky me it was my boss. "Sorry to bother you, but tomrrow as you know my partner is coming to check on the shop, could you cover for me? I'm needed else where." "Sure ,just as long as I get paid." He laughed at me and said you will no doubt,then he hung up on me. Good I thought and went back to watching my movie, it was geting to the best part where she was about to be pulled out of the shower by her ex-lover. The next morning after geting out of my shower,I was looking at my outfits. What to wear,all I know about the partner was that she was very picky. So I looked and thought what will it be, the tight sky blue shirt with the black jeans or maybe the soft baby blue dress that was held up only by my breast. I hate picking out my outfits. Well looking outside it looked like it was going to be another sticky summer day, so the dress would be more comfy. So I slipped it on and pulled my mess of curls back in a ponytail and thought well here I go, headed out the door. So as I open the doors to the shop, I found a message on the phone for me. It was from her to let me know that she'd be coming in later that afternoon. So I got things ready for the morning group. Just on time Tim and Dj showed up for their morning cups off coffee, black for Tim and sugar no cream for Dj. As I made sure they were set up , the group of college girls came in, 4 teas and 2 coffees. As I brought their order over the were talking about how there was a big cat fight the night before. As I headed back to the front, the short redhead grabs my ass and gave it a soft pat. I thought yup know what's going to happen next. Just then Anna came in on time like always said hello to everyone and got busy to work. So with the front of the store in Anna's magical hands, I headed for the back to check on stock, as I was going through the shops stock of creams, I heard someone slip in the back with me. As I was putting them in order I could feel a soft silky hand slipping up my left thigh. I turned around and there was the short redhead, I thought to myself ya it's been about a week and she needs this at least twice a week. So I bend over and started to give her little kisses as her hands did their magic on me, her right hand was working it's magic in my silky core as her left hand was teasing my right nipple through my dress. As she was working on me, I let my hands do some walking of their own as I nibbled and sucked her full mouth. As my first wave came crashing, she droped to her knees and pulled my thong down to the floor, and let her full hot mouth do the magic that her fingers just finshed. As another wave crashed, I could hear her moan with need of her own, so then we switched. As she yanked my hair, I started to do a little of my own magic on her core. to My delight she was already nice and slick for me. So I left my tongue work her hot wet core to a overpowering storm. As her body slowed it's rocking I could tell by her breathing that she wanted more, so then I started to tease her core with my smooth long fingers and sent her off on another wave of storms. Then as her body stop rocking, she lean down and kissed me and said "Thanks I needed that." "No problem, anytime." then she left. As I finished checking the stock, I thought, well today is turning out to be a good day. As I returned to the front Anna was talking to a nice looking lady and a tall redhead man. As Anna saw me she said "This is Marie, Mark's partner and her friend Jake." "Hello ,nice to meet you both." "Likewise" said Marie, "So care to show me around?" "Sure" I said and started to head back to the rear. So I lead them through and showing them everything, and when I got to the stock room I couldn't help but blush and they both looked at me,and then I lead them to the office and left them. As Anna left to pick up our late lunch, Jake came to the front and told me that Marie wanted to talk to me, so I headed back and thought oh great just great, I did something wrong Now Mark will never stop hearing about it. As I got to the office, I took a breath and knocked on the door. I heard a soft husky vioce say come in. So I open the door and stepped in and there was noone at the desk and before I could think of anything the door closed from the back of me. I turned around and there was Marie in nothing but her undershirt and skirt, her over shirt and pantie hoes laid on the floor to the left of the door. I found it hard to breath, she had curves in all the right places and the dark look in her blue eyes told me there were many viles to this lady. She said have a seat, so I took one. As I did I thought oh my what did I get myself in to this time. Then she smiled and crossed to stand in front of me. I just couldn't breath. She said "I saw what you and the girl did, you forgot to turn the cams the other way." I just turned 50 shades of red and thought i'm so fired. She said "I wont fire you,but I want to see if your as good as you seem to be." then she sat on my lap and started to kiss and nibble on my neck and my mouth got a mind of it's own. As my tongue and lips started to tease her nipples I could feel her getting hotter and wetter. So as I made my tongue and mouth tease her nipples nice and hard, my soft long fingers found their way into her hot wet core and started to tease her even more. As I did this I could hear her breathing speed up as her body got tight. As she yank my hair,her body shiver with the first wave of her storm. As I gave her wave after wave, I could tell that soon I'd need my own storm soon. Then she said lets get more comfy, so we moved to the couch. As we did she slid her smooth hands in to my core and started to tease me, as we both got hit with a wave,I heard the door open and close, thought oh my now what. Then I found out what, she removed her hand only for it to be replaced by jake's tongue. As he worked me into more waves, I worked her in to more. By the time I got home that night around 6:00 I was ready for bed.

I get up and thought just another day. So I hoped in the shower and started to wash my hair!! As I do this I wonder if they'll be at the coffee shop this morning or not. So I get out of the shower and start to dry myself off. As I do I think of them and what they did on their last visit. I remember it very well, she was wearing a red dress and he was wearing lose fitting jeans and a open shirt. They had took their table off to the side, I went over there and they order what they always did,tea for her,and a black coffee for him. I came back and to my delight I got a show. His hand was going up her left thigh and she was opening for him. So I gave them their order and I came back to get the order of another group of people,two girls siting in a booth to the left of me. One had her hand on the others right arm,it seemed that day everyone had sex on the mind. So I was about to go on break when the man with the open shirt asked me to come over,so I went to see what was on his mind.When I got there I say what was on his mind he had his tan hand up between her legs,they looked at me and their eyes asked you want to watch. All I could do was nod,so I got closer and as I did I could hear her wetness and smell it to. As her body shivered with pure pleasure,i could feel myself get wet, they look at me and I could see in their eyes that they knew what their little show did to me. Then he asked me in a husky voice for the bill. I nodded again and wrote their bill and went back to watching the shop. After a few seconds he came up to pay the bill and as I took it and was handing his change back to him he said here this is for you,he winked at me and handed me a 50,then they left. As I was cleaning their table up ,the two girl called me over to their table and asked me if their was a restroom,i said yes and they asked me to show them it,so I did. Once I had seen them to the restroom. As i was up front one of them came back and asked me to help with something,seeing that the shop was in good hands , i headed back there. To my delight I got pulled in between them, one was teasing my nipples as the other was working on making me wetter then I was. As My body shivered for the second time that morning,they said thanks and said see you next time around,and they left. After that the rest of my day was boring. So as I slipped into my tight blue shirt and my tight white jean shorts, I couldn't but hoped that they would be waiting there at the shop when I got there,as I headed out the door I could feel myself get wet from just thinking of what the day had planed for me.

So what lies there ? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Below the illusion that everyone sees. So many things undone. So many things unsaid. So what lies there? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Darkness, Emptiness, Loneliness, Or is that more illusion. So what lies there? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Light, Laughter, Lust, Or is that to part of the illusion. So what lies there? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Angel, Devil, Human, Or is that also part of the illusion. So what lies there? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Truth, Lies, Half/Half, Or is that to part of the illusion. So what lies there? In darkness that is me, So what lies there? Need, Honor, Trust, Or is that also a part of the illusion. So what lies there? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Birth, Death, Rebirth, Or is that to part of the illusion. So what lies there? In the darkness that is me, So what lies there? Some things are better left alone. Some things are better found. Some things have no place in this world.

Nessa you have been in the shadows of my mind,but I always feel you. You told me one to get centered you must accept all of yourself. I thank you from my dark heart,for even if you and I don't chat anymore, I've always feel you and Your 360 message always brighting my nights . I thank you for that as well. I know that I haven't said thank you for all them 360 messages you send,but i do get them and they do make my nights a little less empty. Elf,my dear Elf you have made my night brighter. Your always there when I need you. Through these hellish months you have been my steady shadow,always there even when your throat was raw and your doctor told you to rest you were there for me. I don't know how to thank you for making my hell brighter. All I can do is thank you with my dark heart and hope it's enough. Nessa and Elf ,you guys and a few others that i'll thank in time,have made my hellish path easyer to handle. When I was lonely you were there,when I was hurt you were there,when danger was breathing down my neck you were there. All I can say is thank you both so much and I hope some day I'll be able to do the same for you both. Hugs to both of you!!

Sorry dear that I let you down. I'm so full of everyone that I've once again pushed my feelings aside. So I know you have not heard the things you wanted to hear. I know that you can feel the space between us. But I wish you could feel the inside of me and know what is there my dear. Because if you could you would feel all the pain,sadness,hurt,needing,joy ,fear that is there.You would know that you have touched me in ways that others never will and you would know the need,the pain ,the joy,the fear was real. Not this fake crap that you've been dealing with. I know you would understand me sooner or later. I just wish you could feel all that I do ,all the good and all the bad. But saddly noone sees whats in my heart,I make sure of that and for that I am sorry my dear. But that's the life of a heartless dreamwalker. Anyways,I wish you could feel all that is in me.

Hmm, here is something off my head. 1)What would you do with me one night and one night only? 2) How would you want me? 3) Blue or Red? 4) Dinner or Foreplay? 5) How well do you know me? 6) How far will you let me go? 7) Rough or Soft? 8) Toys or Bare hands? 9) How much is to much for you? 10) Would you post this so I can answer you? hehe,doubt if any will answer but hay why not just a little online fun!!!

You who is always with me in my mind but never in body. Why is it that we click like we do. How is it you seem to see the parts that others don't. Why is it so hard to get you out of my mind. How is it that you out of all I've touch is willing to go where others will not. Why is it so real with you where it's not with others. How is it that we seem to have crossed paths time and time again. Why is it that I feel more feelings with you then others. How I wish I had the answers. How I wish I know how you got past the walls that are me. Why is it so easy to know you yet I've never meet you. All this go's through my head so many times that I dream when I'm wide awake. I don't understand any of it, this is so not me, I never let my walls down ,yet you are there. A wise woman once said Kat'a'lynn,You who reflex's everyone and everything and sees things that can't be seen,one day you'll be seen,by others and yourself. When that day comes you'll be on the biggest crossroad of your life. You'll have to choose which path will you take. For with in you is the path of the many worlds, you'll have to choose which worlds you'll be a part of. It is the lonely life at times but at other times you'll not be alone. Then she gave me two chains with animals on them, one was that of a wolf howling at the full moon the other was that of an eagle, never know why she said what she did,and sadly she never got the chance to tell me. Time has past and has flowed on and has taken me to many places and to many people of many kinds. Now I have changed into some one else ,one who still reflex's and sees what others don't. But also in to one who dreams even when shes not asleep. So I often wonder about everything that crosses my path. After all this time I still don't have the answer I seek, all I have is pictures,feelings and thoughts,some come from with in others come from outside. So in all of this I still wonder from time to time is this a curse or is this a blessing or is it both. Always seeing from the outside in. Anyways these or some of the thoughts that keep me up with the moon . Now I'll stop boring you all and wish the storm that's been brewing all day breaks so my head and body don't ache anymore.

When you sit down and you think about it,feelings are really dumb and so wrong in so many ways. You got to ask yourself what the hell is the point of them when they really don't matter. Because everything is going to happen anyways,no matter what you feel. So you sit there and you wonder whats the point really. I mean no two people truely feel the same thing at the same time. It's like people are going to do what they always do no matter where your feelings are. Take me , I've got to be the biggest fool in the whole world,people told me things and I didn't belive them wanted to give the people they were talking about a chance to tell me in their own words,but like the fool that I am, I open up and got to atched once again. So fuck ,just fuck it all,this is the last time for I don't know how long anyone is going to hear a damn thing out of me, goodbye and good fucking luck to all of you.

As she crawled in the soft bed, her body begged for another storm, but she knew it was late and tomorrow was going to be a big day. So she curled up on her side and sleep, dreams of him flooded her mind and body. She was right in the middle of one of those long walks they would take in the middle of the night.Where they would walk the shadowed walk ways. He had her up against the tree and was taking his dark pleasures from her. He was deep inside her and was about to bite her neck, when a crash of thunder woke her up. For a second as she looked around her room she was confused then a shadow crossed her sight. As her eyes caught it,she couldn't breath. After all this time had he come to her room. Yes , it was him as he crossed over to her bedside a flash of lighting show his body off very nicely. She just watch as he came closer to her with nothing but a smile and a deep look to his eyes. He slipped in next to her and said in a soft husk voice I told you not to give up on me,that I was very much here. As he trace his fingers down her neck and around her breast. She found it very hard to breath. Then slowly but roughly he tugged at her nipples making her shiver. Then his mouth was over one hard nipple then another. She shivered even more. As his mouth moved down her body ,slowly so he could taste her. As his lips went down farther ,her hands went to his hair as she arched herself so his mouth could get more of her. His mouth reached her silky core and and started to tease it. The more he teased her the more she arched to give him all of her silky core. He reached up and teased her left nipple then her right nipple. Then he slide his hands down to hold her in place as he let his tongue work it's magic on her silky core. As he held her she moan softly and flushed to a nice rose pink. As he held her even tighter to his mouth,he could feel the first hot little wave of her inner storm break. She shivered and held his head to her tighter. Untill he brought her inner storm to it's peak. As her body rode on waves of her inner storm he just held her tighter. After her body stopped shaking, he pulled her on top of him as he rolled on to his back. She let out a a little moan , as they laid there resting , he said softly, told you I was still here,and I'll show you how much I'm still here in a few my dear, until then rest now, you'll need your energy for later. he he,the end for now, he he, hope you'd enjoyed that all.

As he lead her back in to the house he said only this. Don't give up on that guy,he is still very much here,sweet dreams. As they left he went back to talk to the other high men. She headed back up to he room. Thought ahh think it's time for a bath. So she called for the person that gets her bath ready for her. As she slipped in to the hot sweet pea smelling bath, she shivered as her body got use to the hot water. As the water slipped all over her curves. She lay her head back and wonder did he know how she wish the water was him. She closed her eyes and she could remember a night just like this a storm just breaking, they were in a hot bath he was licking her nipples as one had held her breast tight as his other hand found it's way in to her silky core. At that thought ,her nipples became hard,like he was doing it all over again. She shivered all over again, and moan softly. Then she heard a soft voice saying to her,Don't give up on that man he is still very much here. She sighed and open her eyes, called her helper to her ,wash my hair slowly please,un like last time. The helper said yes as you wish. As her hair got slowly washed she closed her eyes,once again she found herself back to that night. He and her were doing this very thing he was in back of her washing her hair and nibbling on her neck,she shivered and sighed. Are you ok asked her helper. Yes ,I am,please leave me for now,I'll finish my hair. Once she was alone once again in the bath,she couldn't help but think about those nights in the past. The storm had broke now and it was going at a nice slow beat. As she closed her eyes her mind got flooded with thoughts of him. As it came down and the bath water tickled her,she could feel her body begging for her own little storm to break. So she slipped deeper in the water and let the thoughts of him carry her away. She could feel her nipples grow harder at the though of his lips and fingers teasing them and the way he did. She reached up and let her fingers do what he had done to them so many times before. With each twist and tug, she could feel her silky core get hotter and silkier. She shifted a little more and slipped her other hand in her silky core, and let thoughts of his hot hard hand inside of her. As her thoughts filled with his hot hard hand inside of her and it moving with the beat of the storm outside,she sighed as her own storm was getting close to the breaking point. As her whole body got hotter and tighter, she could feel the first waves of her storm breaking,she moan softly,as he body shake with wave after wave,until she was shivering so hard that she made little wave in the bath. She open her eyes and thought how can thoughts of him still do this to me after all this time. She called her helper to get her robe. As she waited , she was still getting flooded with thoughts of him and she know she would have a few more storms before the night ended. I'll write the rest in the next few days.