Hey all that is going to read this. I got something on my mind and wanted to talk about it. Not that I think it is going to do any good. Just wanted to get it all out. Sometimes it is better to think this way for me. OK where do I start?
I have a friend that need some money. I had money so I guessed that I could help her out.She told me that she was going to pay me back if full on the 9th. I needed the money for something (bills) I needed to pay. (that is all I can say about that for now.) But back to this problem I am having . Well She told me that on the 9th. She was going to get paid. But she need some money on the 30th.(last moth.)I had money but I still got bills I got to pay and things like that.(you know a life) So here it is the 9th. and she is talking bout how she can not give all the money back now.(like I give her the money).......... I am a good friend and she got a kid. And I don't want to see them in the street, But In givin her the money I didn't pay what I needed to pay and she don't have all the money I give her. I am f**ked.That is all I come up with. I may can make some money but I would have to do things (Bad things) I don't want to do to get it. (some may say do what you got to do) Right? But that would put me in Jail or somewhere I do not want to be. If I start asking my friends for help they are not real friends I know this from the last time. So why go thou that again. So I am back to I am f**ked (right). I don't really got alot of friends that could or would help me. But I help everone I can. (friends) That is what being a friend is to me.(help when you can)(always hold to your word.) Even if I could go to jail by help or doing things that I do. I would do it if your a friend and need it done. That is what a friendship is to me. I try to keep friends..... cause in times like this they can help.(But i said that I really don't have a real friend) Well I don't really have any of them. Lookin at the last time I needed someone. I called and got the dail tone. Thanks DJ-MD. What kind of friend do shit like that. But back to this. I am lost here.
I helped a friend and now she is giving me her ass to kiss. I was told that they would give it back and when the time comes they say I will give you this (not even 1/2) and "pay you the rest later, or when I can". What is that sh*t? I was/ am so mad/upset. I don't know what I can do. I can not pay my bills now cause I help her Pay her Bills. Now I could be the one out on the streets or in jail. Cause that is the only way I seethat I can be paying my bills off by the time I need to pay. I got like a few days befor I am looking at the streets and what then? What then? I hope that you all can understand what I am saying here. It sound right in my head. If I want to stay in a house and with the things I love, I got to pay up. She keep talking about how she just don't have what I give her and I am f**ked and no one can help me out. Back to me being f**ked here. I have been thinking about it for some time now and still don't see a way out of it. If I would had not help her. She would be in the street with her kid. This way it is only me. LOL Funny how life & friends can f**k you over all at the same time. I am looking for a way to make like $600 in two days. I am not home (in Baltimore) and I need to get money to make money. Why do I do this kind of stuff?
