I'm wallowing in my depression watching everyone else happy in their relationships while I'm ever so slowly killing myself to the music of their joy :(( I guess the darkness of loneliness in my soul its the only companionship i have. I'm falling into a never ending pit. As i fall I see everyone at the top laughing at me. Goodbye to happiness and everything that is pleasurable as I enter the abyss. I wish, just wish I had some glimpse even a speck of hope but all that was light has left my heart or is trapped beneath the pain. Will I ever experience love again? I doubt it...guess there are some destined to be alone. So I give up on ever finding some one to truly love me for me. The joy of marriage...the bliss of children...the overwhelming pleasure of grandchildren. Everything that everyone else will achieve. Everyday I struggle to maintain this "façade" called happiness. Some times I can, Sometimes I fail. But it never really matters...no one ever notices.
