Shai's blog: "Just stuff. "

Waiting for the night 
That I can escape 
From this hell of a life 
that i live day by day. 
Escape to your arms 
Away from the world 
Up above all else 
I wanna be your girl. 
Jump in the van 
The radio loud 
Roll the windows down 
Forget the crowd. 
Forget the pills 
Forget the cash 
Forget I'm nothing 
But a piece of ass. 
Every trip the road gets longer 
The risk gets higher 
But I don't care. 
Cause I love the nights 
When I can escape 
From this hell of a life 
I live day to day. 
Through the next town 
Around the corner 
Take that left 
it won't be much longer. 
Up the stairs 
To my escape from the world 
Where all I know 
Is I'm your girl. 
High as a cloud 
Ecstasy blooming 
Can't help it I'm loud 
My heart is grooving 
To the sound of your voice 
As you sing me your song. 
Hopefully it won't be long 
That I can escape 
From this hell I live 
Slinging this ass 
And all these pills.

Hitting the road at a quarter to ten 
I really can't believe I'm doing this again. 
But cash is getting tight 
and the stress is getting worse. 
I'll be halfway there 
When I finish this verse. 
The path that I'm taking 
On this cold dark night 
I never thought I'd be doing 
Something so not right. 
But the cash is short 
And the fights are long 
My destruction is 
The cause of this song. 
I take another puff 
Off my wooden pipe 
It's what what I have to do 
To live this life. 
My heart is racing 
My nerves are shot 
It takes all I've got 
To not fall apart. 
I'm finally there 
He's waiting for me 
With my heart I hate 
All that I see. 
But the cash is needed 
To calm the day 
I only wish 
There was another way. 
Toke after toke 
Shot after shot 
I'm finally ready 
To get him hot. 
Three hours later 
The cash is in. 
I dread the day 
I'll have to do this again.

Twenty Four years and so much to tell. 
Who Would've known I'd put me through hell. 
On top of the world at eighteen moons 
Not a care in my life, no open wounds.

I had the world in my hands: school, work and a car. 
Little did I know despair was not far. 
I made a choice, foolish as could be. 
I should've listened to all who told me 
You were no good, no good for me.

I fought, I cried, I worked, I tried, 
And everyday you only lied because 
Shoes don't stretch and men don't change. 
All my life I feel deranged 
For believing that you'd be there. 
I never thought it'd be this strange.

People could change, I always believed 
If given the push that they need. 
Damn, I was wrong. my dreams were crushed, 
Heart broken, and no one hushed. 
Every day I'm reminded of the way I failed, 
Every "I told you so" rings like a bell. 
Since that day in January that changed my world, 
Misery's been my song, Hopelessness my girl.

Because shoes don't stretch and men don't change 
And all my life I feel deranged 
For believing that you'd be there. 
I should've known that life's not fair.

Years gone now and I've learned the hard way 
So young girls listen when I say: 
Shoes don't stretch and Men don't change 
So don't let him treat you that way.

You're beautiful, no matter what they say. 
You're beautiful, You'll learn along the way 
That shoes don't stretch and Men don't change

So don't depend on him for all your things

Cus the day he finds that he's through, 

The one to take care of you is you.

So get on your feet and do what you do 
And believe me when I say that you 
Are capable of all your dreams 
But always remember One thing: 
Shoes don't stretch and men don't change 
Every day I feel deranged 
For believing that he'd be there 
Oh I hope you realize that life's not fair.