Dj Blue Eyed Stoner's blog: "just something"

I think its amazing how people can love without a care when the one I love always in trouble I have always hoped for that wonderful day when I wake and I don't think to call her up just to see if shes a live or dead But the only thing I know for sure is that I love her and she loves me back or love is so strong that I think that sometime we share a bond A bond so strong that we could break though pure stone just the two of us together as one Oh how I dream of that day but yet I know that it might never come by now I have grown up and know that it may never come So now i try to make the best of it and hope truly that one day she can be happy without worry or complaint of the heavy burden she must carry everyday of her young beautiful life

What can I do to make you realize? All this time we've been friends I've been hoping for a little more So even if this takes a lifetime... I'll tell you bluntly now Because its the only way you'll understand. These feelings in my heart, Were designed to steal your's away. Without realizing it, You've gone and loved me. Without knowing my feelings, You pushed them aside. When was it that you first noticed, I was different than the rest? When was it that you first realized? You liked me best. I'm the last thing in your head, As you rest it on your pillow. The first thing you see, As soon as your eyes open. There's no use denying, Its a little late to hide. There's no need to worry, Love is like friendship but better.

Why can't you see How honestly I would love, I wish, To love you. I could be the one You love and hold Every day- Rain or sun. Why don't you Realize, All the hopes and dreams That float in my eyes- Does that not help? Does it still yet lay Blind to you? I want so badly To have you hold me In your arms- Strong arms, Powerful arms- I want you to love me So bad- My heart aches.

Every night, before I close my eyes, The last thing I see is you face. Your beautiful smile,your cute laugh,No part of you could I ever replace. You make me smile, you make me happy, Even when I feel all alone. And even though I know you wont call, I spend every night by the phone.And when I drift, off to sleep, All of my dreams are of you. I dream of us hugging and you holding my hand, And all of the things we would do. If only you, would notice me, If only you would see that I Have always admired, although haven't showed it, That you could make joyful when I cry. But obviously, I'm just not good enough, And makes me want to scream. But I hold it inside but always ask why, Why wont you love me?

50 ODD Things about you! If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you! 1. Do you like blue cheese? no 2. Have you ever smoked heroin? no 3. Do you own a gun? yes 4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? dont have one 5. Do you get nervous before Dr. appts? always 6. What do you think of hot dogs? there ok 7. Favorite Christmas song? silent night 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? coffe 9. Can you do push ups? yes 10. What do you order at starbucks? dont go to starbucks 11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? none 12. Favorite hobby? ps2 and net 13. How do you eat your eggs? over easy 14. Do you have A.D.D.? sometimes 15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself? theres so many 16. Middle name? scott 17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment... im bored im bored im bored 18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday.? im bored im bored im bored 19. Three drinks you regularly drink? coffee tea soda 20. Current worry right now? none 21. Current hate right now? how stupid some ppl can be 22. Favorite place to be? myrtle beach south carolina 23. How did you bring in the New Years? gettin drunk as a skunk 24. Where would you like to go? any where fun 25. Name three people who will complete this? dont know who will do this 26. Do you own slippers? yes 27. What shirt are you wearing? not wearin one 28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? never have 29. Can you whistle? yes 30. Favorite color?(s) baby blue 31. Would you be a pirate? no 32. What songs do you sing in the shower? dont 33. Favorite girl's name? lorna and destiny 34. Favorite boy's name? dont have any 35. Whats in your pockets right now? nothin 36. Last thing that made you laugh? a txt i got 37. Best bed sheets as a child? dont remember that far back 38. Worst injury you've ever had? shattered knee 39. Do you love where you live? hell fuckin no 40. How many TV's do you have? 3 41. Who is your loudest Friend? me lol 42. How many dogs do you have? 1 43. What are you thrilled about right now? nothin 44. Do you have a crush on someone? ya i have more than one lol 45. What is your favorite book? too many 46. What is your favorite candy? dont care for candy 47. Favorite Sports Team? dallas cowboys 48. What song do you want played at your funeral? knockin on heavens door guns and roses 49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? drinking 50. How many secrets are you keeping? none

A soul mate comes but once in a life time their value is more than a pound or a dime. You will share minds as one and be there because you're soul mate does really care. Known maybe for a week or for many years as soul mates sharing all as laughter & tears. You may part company sometime along the way you're soul mate in you're heart will always stay. For many reasons souls will be tightly connected to help us through pain & hurt that was detected. Let you're soul be free to share close with another may it be a friend or family member or you're lover.

At one time, she was mine, i use to think, shes so damn fine, she was very smart, and funny as hell, soft sensual touch, an unforgettable smell soft silky hair, a beautiful smile, you get the idea, i could go on awhile, she was my love, and was just the best, up till the day, that she sadly left, why i still love her? i do not know, i wish deep down, i could let her go, why'd she do this, and leave so quick, guess its cause, she don't give a shit, i write these poems, through them i cry, always wishing, to give another try, why do i love you, if you don't love me? if theres light to this question, please let me see...

I fell for her too fast. I was so naive. I gave her all of my heart but pain was all I received. My love life is useless, the girl I loved wants someone else. I'm bleeding her name, but it's just me beside myself. I've tried so hard to move on, but it's harder than it seems. It's so hard to let go of the girl you see in all your dreams. That one special person you see in your head while you're sitting in class, while you drift off in bed. Killed by the knife in my heart, I just couldn't see, She's just not in love, at least not in love with me. now all our time together turns into a big blur.

I'm sorry I'm not perfect I can only be me I'm sorry I'm not perfect like the guy you want me to be I'd give anything to make you happy Even if it makes me sad I'd never do anything to hurt you I don't try to make you mad. Sometimes you get angry And we start to fight Little do you know I cry myself to sleep at night Sometimes I don't know Just what I did wrong I don't understand Why we don't get along Everytime we fight I wish you could feel my heartbreak Sometimes I wonder How much more my heart can take Sometimes I get so angry I just don't know what to say I feel like a game That everyone wants to play The only thing i need in this world Is someone who is true... ...The only thing i want in this world Is to be loved by you!