9 Blood Syndicate Family Little Sis To ...'s blog: "Just random poetry"

Everything Ive ever known Falls into the unknown Everyone Ive ever cared for Slipped slowly through my fingertips This lifeless embodyment that is considered My body Is no longer the same Love was never an issue Until I met the one who gave me life and hope Hope has never been a word that was used to describe me Becasue hope has never really been there As I sit and watch my peers laugh and cuddle With their boyfriends and girlfriends I wonder I wonder could things have been any different I am wondering if I was put onto the earth Just to make people see that world is not perfect I never understood what it meant to love Until it all fell distant From the person I am now

We sit here takling on the phone Me falling with you More and more every night Your voice and the things you say Kept deep in my heart The more we are together The happier I get I feel the warmth And the love in your touch I see the truth And loyalty in your eyes And I fall deeper The deeper I fall the More I realize That I I love you Your heart is purre The love i feel From the warmth of your touch I feel the caress From a true deep love I know tihs love is Completely true I can feel the feeling grow stronger Every time we talk Twice as strong as before I like this love That I feel I want to keep You and this feeling Forever

Release the anger Release the stress Help me become me again Help me figure out all those Little things That everyone loves in me Bring me back to life So to speak Help me get back to the person That i was before I cry myself to sleep at night Waking every other hour Wondering what the fuck happened To me The demons in my mind My body and soul are ravaged As this demon torments me Help me free my mind From this demon Help me free my body From this pain Help me release my demon Help me come back to me

I try to be myself People judge me No matter how much I try not to be that person It always comes out I hurt inside Thus letting it show On the outside The pain is just too much To bare My heart cries out My soul longs to be touched No one knows the depths of my soul No one has touched the depths of my heart All these misjudgements about love No one understands me for me I try to love myself But I let others drag me down No more Nothing or no one will drag me down Any longer For I shall surround myself With people to lift me up in My hard times No longer getting hurt No longer falling too quick ly I maybe percieved as a bitch But I no longer care

You tell me Im wrong For my beliefs You tell me Im wrong Because of the way I dress You tell me Im wrong Because of the music I listen to I look at you and all I see are sheep Sheep who follow the crowd Sheep that pass judgement on people Because they do not follow the same crowd Just because they choose not to follow that crowd They are treated different They are tormented They are tortured The life you have handed to us isnt right Just because we chose to be different Doesent mean we are not good people A good person is a good person No matter how they dress The type of music they listen to Or based on their beliefs If the world could see its self Through my eyes It would realize How fucked up it is

You are my world The only thing that I care for The world was torn apart for me The days were long and drawn out My life had no meaning Now my life is perfect I feel like everyone is now behind me The life I am given Sometimes may be fucked up But i know i have my best friend in the world I have the love of my life I have everything i could ever need

I was scared I was alone The world was cold The life i was living Was a lie Everything was different Now im alive Now im safe Now im not alone Now the world has warmed up Thanks to you I give you my heart I give you my soul I give you my trust I give you the life You have given back to me I love you with all my heart All my soul Everything i am inside is The way it is because of you You were the one who gave me life again You were the ONLY one who saw the real me Behind all the lies Behind the life that the rest of the world Could see I thank you with the utmost sincerity I pledge my life My heart My soul Everything i am TO YOU You were the one to help set me free You were the one that helped me become me again You breathed this precious life into me I love you so much I am never letting go