Just Me's blog: "Just Me"

Well, here is what is going on in my life. I am currently without a running vehicle. I am have to pack up and try to find someplace to live by this weekend. I will probably not be back on here for a while after tonight. I have found some really good people here I can consider to be my friend. Thanks for helping me understand some of life. Talk to you all hopefully soon.

Life is funy. It has a weird way of showing someone that we are all human. I am glad that I have the friends that I do have. They have always been there for me when my life has not gone very well. Friends are good to have to remind someone of the fact that there really is something out there that IS worth living for and working towards.

Today is today. Hopefully, tommorrow will be better. I have the option of carrying on a grudge towards a person. Yet it is not in me to do that. If I did that then I would not be living life.

Thank you for reminding me that I do have feelings and that I am capable of actually caring for someone. Better yet, I am only human with all the faults and flaws of being human.

I am a real person with real intentions. Just like I have always said before and I will continue to say:

LIKE ME, LOVE ME, OR LEAVE ME.

I am still me and always will be. I am Just Me.

Pain is a feeling that cuts to the bone.

Pain does not discriminate.

Pain does not care about gender.

Pain is something that a person never truly gets over.

Life is so full of pain that a person doesnt want to live life to it's fullest.

People like to play with other people's feelings and emotions to inflict pain on them. I believe this is to make them feel better about themselves. I am tired of all the games and lies that people present as opposed to being real.

I am tired and too old for stuff like this.

I am going to not be on here much other than to play fumafia.

The real people who are my true friends already have the other ways to get a hold of me. I am a real person and I just wished you would have been real with me as well. Thanks for all the good times.

I am sitting here the next day after my birthday trying to figure out what happened the night previous. There was some amazing discoveries made. I have found out that there are some people who really do care to an extent.

However, I am trying to figure out if it was just cause of that particular day, an attempt to make me feel better, or something else. I don't know. In a way, I am not sure I want to know.

I am the type of person who has had to rely on just me to get things done. My own family has not offered to help when I needed help. Therefore, I have always relied on just me to get things done. I realize I am a stubborn old man. I do not think I am unrealistic or unreasonable.

This is my challenge to everyone who really reads this. I know who my friends are. The thing is don't be a stranger. I value my friends very highly. They are all I have anymore. I am scared that one day everyone is going to turn their backs on me again. I do not know what will happen if that happens again.

If you are a true friend take the time in order to see how I am doing. I try to do the same to everyone. I am still the same real person you have come to know. I am still here, just do me and yourself a favor and let me know that you are too!!!

I am sitting here and wondering what is it I want to do with my life? Then, I remember.

I remember what I have strived so hard to start. I think back to the beginning of all this madness. How difficult it was to get started. All the long hours I spent struggling towards my goals. The many hours of sleep I missed out on.

And all for what? To have someone tell me that isnt the way to go through life?

No, NO I say. I will go on. I will press forward in order to better my life and myself.

Well life has been very interesting. I have met a lot of wonderful people and very good friends.  I am just sitting here pondering if there is more to life that I am missing out on?

Then I pour me a cup of coffee, smile, and go back to writing my obituary.

HAPPY HALLOWEENIE