Not exactly sure where to start. I would start at the beginning, but I'm sure that nobody really wants to read through my entire life story. I have had several friends ask me over the last couple of days whats wrong with me. Why am I sad, or why am I crying and upset, and the truth of the matter is, I don't really know. I have some theories, but nothing solid to blame my mood on. Maybe it's just the weather, been very overcast and rainy the last couple of days...
could be because everyone I see around me has someone they care about and love very much. And even though I know some people that I care very deeply for, love me for who I am, I don't have the physical closeness that I so desperately long for.
There are so many guys that talk to me on here and all they are interested in is fuckin me or having me suck their cocks or some other form of temporary physical pleasure. And despite the fact that I am a very sexual person, it just wouldn't mean anything to me without some kind of feelings. And that would make me feel even more empty than I do right now at this moment.
Maybe thats what my problem is.... I feel empty.
I have basically been single for such a long time...
Everyday it's the same thing. I wake up, take care of not only my two children, but I also care for my roommates son alot of the time also. I have no r/l friends to speak of that live anywhere near me. I never go anywhere, I don't go out and do anything but take care of the grocery shopping and doctor's appointment. My life is empty.
I just feel so very alone.
