Its supposed to be just a title. "Boyfriend" or Girlfriend" is supposed to be just a word. The meaning behind it is whats supposed to matter. How you feel is whats supposed to matter. But what happens when you let go of that title? How are you supposed to be single but still so emotionally attached?
How do you not think about everything that got you to that point? How do you not regret the steps you took to get you to that point? How are you supposed to decide whats most important in your life when there is so much hurt?
It comes down to a choice of something that will be there for the next 50 years or something that will be there for the rest of my life. I've made choices to better my life, but what happens if those choices result in me loosing something that truly matters to me.
You say its just a title, but to me its so much more. Its a part of who I am and how I represent myself. What do I do now that is gone? You say that nothing has changed, but everything has. How long is too long to wait? Do we wait 6 months, 1 year, 2 years? You were right when you said feelings like these don't just go away. But whose to say they won't start to go away over time. And then what are we left with? So many questions and not enough answers. I don't even know if there will ever be answers.
