It's funny how this life can break you.
Never knowing which direction it will take you.
My life most days feels like a reaccuring nightmare.
Leaving me shaking,broken and usually crying.
I try so hard and it gets me nowhere.
Asking myself repeatedily..why do I care?
My words often twisted..
My actions misuderstood..
I try to make the right choices..
but it never does me any good.
My life feels like it's spinning out of control.
I need someone to take the wheel and never let go.
I can't hold onto it anymore...if I do I will crash and burn.
I see everyone else is so happy in their lives..when is ever going to be my turn?
So I sit here and think on the brink of breaking.
Empty and hollow inside...I keep on pretending..
Happiness is something I'm getting tired of faking.
It's driving my mind insane and there is nothing that anyone can really do..
It's all going so wrong, so crazy..
I need someone to just be there for me, so that i can be in there arms, i don't want to cry to sleep no more.
I don't think I can go on very much longer before I go insane...
I hate being alone, I hate the mind games people play..
I just wish I could fly away, fly away from the pain..
With that person who I love, the one who'll let me cry in there arms and they held me no matter what..
Will you be that person?
Will you be that person to wipe away my tears...
The one to hold me when I'm breaking...
The one who chases away my fears...
Will you help me be as strong as i was before?
Never go back to my ways of causing so much pain..
To much pain, to much, and it's driving me crazy..
I can't leave this place without thinking that there is someone out to get me..
To kill me, there after me, and you are the only one that truly understands, but where are you?
Why can't you be here?
Where is the place that you hide away from the pain..
but yet I want to follow, but yet I want you to help.
Every where I look for you, I can never find you..
I help people, they beat me down..
I try to stand up but there problems are getting to much, to many problems, but I have to go on, they are depending on me, but when I need someone there is no one to be there, so all I can do is sit in this cage and cry, and hope to be free.
Freedom is something I wish for, but I'm not sure that I'll get..
Freedom from these feelings and memories.
My mind I wish I could reset.
Erase all the pain that haunts me by night and by day.
Why leave me cold and alone?
Why am I haunted from the past so much?
Why is everything going so wrong?
I cry to sleep, I wish to sleep for the rest of my life.. Till I am stabed in the heart..dead..and my soul is rising to my wings...
To my true form, of where I can hide away from the pain, cry away, and no one will ever know, no one but me
