I've never blogged here b4, so I thought WTF, give it a shot.
I'm not on here to much...I check it every few days. I'm a myspace freak,, but my buddy Billy turned me onto FuBar and I turned my Friend Donna onto FuBar. Check em both out.
I'm so low on points and FuBar cash! Guess I need to check things out more.
Sexuality???
Went to a drag club over the weekend with a friend and my mind has been kinda messd up since. I'm not into girls per-say, but those drag Queens...WHOA! Knowing what's under their dresses really turns me on. I've always loved the idea for more then 1 boy and have been lucky enough in my past to have had that a few times.
But its kinda messing with my head. If I were totally single I'd not even give it a second thought, but I'm into a longterm thing with my man. He works so much and he's always to "sleepy" to do anything! And I mean ANYTHING! Its a drag, but I love him so much. Really wish I could be fully honest with him. He's got to much on his brain right now though for me to even think about it. Sad shit! He could be getting it left and right right now...but "to sleepy". Sucks when u love someone.
I know most ppl on here don't have some1, think its worse when u do. Its next to me all night long and I can't have it. He doesn't mean to tease me at all, but it is. He's such an incredible lover too. He's great in bed and has and always will get me off a bunch. He knows I get off really easy, I always have, but he hasn't even tried in months. We dont have kids or anything either and he calls me from work all the time, so I do trust him and always know where he is.
Don't think he can trust me...He did say one time that what he didn't know wouldn't hurt him. I think I took that a tad to literally. Cos now there's alot he doesn't know.
But I'm not getting any younger and I'm gonna fill my needs as they need to be met. Just wish there were needs he need met, but dont think there are other then playing out again or getting another band together.
A creative slump can really fuck a person up! I know this, he knows this, every creative type of person knows this. Just wish there was something I could do for him....actually, I kinda have, but he doesn't know it yet. Got a former band mate of his to call here over his 3 days off...oh god! I hope he does call him to play. He needs to jam badly. Think that'll make a HUGE difference. I don't wanna stray and I only have with ppl who r my friends already. U learn things from everyone u're with. Just hope the next time he doesn't think "well, she never did this b4" or "whoa! Where'd this cum from". hah! Its been that long.
GUYS!!! Give me some advice here! Have u ever NOT wanted sex? I just don't get it. I mean, yes, I understand working all the time can ware a person out, but comon! He doesn't have to do anything. Ill do it all. Just want him to have some joy!
Awh fuck! What to do?
Ok, that's my 1st blog, not a real happy 1, but at least I did 1.
Hey, I need some points too! Help me get there! I'll help u too.
xo
J
