Jewel Nina's blog: "Jewel's Stuff and Nonsense"

Empty words, broken dreaming Ghosts of lost emotions Better served to nigthmares Whisper felt kisses fading, that upon awakening bring tears Promises better left unsaid Shattered lies, misleading Tattered and torn was the heart Refilled with passion, desire Lost again to mislead loyalty Compassion died Lies revive.... JewelC

I start being me today, You dont like it, then back away, I really dont know who else to be, So if you cant take it, please walk away from me Was it all just a facade Think on it, its rather odd Trying to be just what you expect I lost me, I lost MY respect Too many times Ive wanted to say no Too many times you wouldnt let go I hurt, I cry, I struggle as well Sometimes my life is a daily hell Im not as strong as you might think I cover it with a laugh, a giggle, a wink I'm not perfect, dont claim to be Simply put, Im just plain me Just look past all of the shit Pick up the pieces you didnt think fit I'm going to start right here Damn you and damn your fear Let me be the child inside A little scared, a little wild Room to grow into that I used to be Loving, sensual and carefree If you cant let me be who I am Then really I dont give a damn I need "me time" I need to laugh I have to get back who I was in the past So here today I start anew Say goodbye to who you thought you knew JewelC 3/07

Children believe uncondtionally... Some adults still retain this ability as they grow older. I've tried that, I was naive, gullible..whatever Maybe I'm jaded now..I wont chance it again. Hidden agendas, false promises, games and lies... These things make the most trusting of people take a second look at their views on life. Will I heal?...possible... Will I trust again with the ability of a child?....Never again No one on this earth is worthy of that type of trust....