AVSongbird's blog: "jenna's drabbles"

I have something I have to get off my chest, so I'm just going to say it. I'm a dog person. Yep. I know. Not exactly world-changing news is it? But there it is. Don't get me wrong, cats are great, but when you come home at the end of a long day, nothing beats opening that front door and being knocked flat on your back by a huge, hairy, slobbery, loves-you-completely-in-a-way-no-person-ever-could-love-you dog that just makes life worth living. (Though, I could do without tripping over my sheepdog in the morning when I open my bedroom door, just after waking up, pre-my-morning-caffeine intake lol).

Current mood: contemplative Category: Life You know, they always say that high school should be some of the best years of your young life. Yes, "They", the unnamed them who always have a lot to say, but are never really nice enough to sign their name at the bottom of the page. There are definitely things I miss from high school, but I won't bore you with a list. The one thing I really miss the most is the stage. I've been singing since I was a little girl, and from the time I first got into school, I adored being up on stage. I remember back in elementary school, I was ecstatic to get the role of Narrator for the Christmas play one year. NARRATOR. After that, for nine years in school, I was in choir. And every time I'd go to get up onstage and sing, solo or with the group, it felt like the first time, and the butterflies would just go, and I would be a complete mess before we went on. And then.... we would go on, and I always remember walking out onto the stage and leaving the butterflies behind. If you knew me at the time, or even now, you'd realize why I laugh at that. Ordinarily, I'm a quiet person, shy, reserved by nature. That's just the way I have always been. The overachiever, the bookworm, the one that does a LOT of listening, and works her butt off to get her work done. And yet, there it was, and I think that's partly why I always have loved the stage so much-- because I could get up there, and let go, and just be me for a change. I could be completely different up there than I was offstage, and I loved how I felt up there. It felt good to be up there, to have the lights on and the people all watching me for once, when ordinarily I'm the one who's content to hang around the back, out of the spotlight. I think it culminated my senior year, at Granite. The most fun I'd ever had on the stage. My choir teacher had said that there was an open slot in the show, and I think it was the piano player for the choir that first suggested that I get up and sing one of my own (A song I had written that year), using a background I'd put together on a tape, from a drum machine. Not exactly grammy material, but I didn't care. It was the first time I'd ever sung one of my own to a group larger than just a few of my friends, so basically I was scared to DEATH, and I loved every minute of it. I'd asked my teacher if I could use a wireless mic, and planned it all out the day of the performance, how I would go about the whole thing. I remember how nervous I was that night, and how one of my friends brought a really cool shirt for me to wear (It was a silky material, gray/blue snake skin print, with the lower half of the back open, with straps that criss crossed it, I've looked for one like it ever since) , my cousin Julie loaned me her black pants-- I'll never forget that Juge :-) , and a few of my friends did my hair. (I think they were excited to see me in something other than the tshirts and jeans I usually wore.) That night, I sang with the background I'd written and walked through the audience as I sang, moving up and down the aisles, and I couldn't help laughing when they started clapping along. I think I might have invented a new shade of red. I've never felt another thing like it-- that adrenaline, you know? Nothing else comes close to that rush for me, and I miss it.

Current mood: artistic Category: Life Imaginative and sensitive Compassionate and kind Selfless and unworldly Intuitive and sympathetic On the dark side.... Escapist and idealistic Secretive and vague Weak-willed and easily led Pisces, Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own. Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They sometimes exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually (depending on how they are aspected). They long to be recognized as greatly creative. They also dislike disciple and confinement. The nine-to-five life is not for them. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they often times do not have the energy or motivation to battle against the Establishment. Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, fame and financial reward for they are extremely gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places. They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful. In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking. They would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers. Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation. ***** Pisces Theres a reason why the symbol of this water sign is two fish and not just one. Perhaps only second to Gemini, Pisces people possess two sided personalities. Creative and romantic, imaginative and sexual, the fish can be utterly transcendental, and they are the most loving and caring in the zodiac. But before you go getting too excited, theres another, sadder side. Pisces is ultra sensitive, putting even Cancer to shame when it comes to being emotional, and tends to be depressive. Whatever you do or say may affect the fish so much that youll feel that youre walking on eggshells in order to save their feelings. But of course, thats an extreme example and also connected to Pisces penchant for playing the martyr. Overall, this sign is a pretty dreamy partner if youre into a loving, deeply connected partner who simply needs assurance now and then. Check yourself if you wind up with the fish however, as their ability to select inappropriate partners is legendary. Best Matches: Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, Capricorn Worst Matches: Gemini Sagittarius Opposite: Virgo

Current mood: awake Category: Life I think the worst part about having insomnia is knowing the fact that you have only a few options left to you in the dead of night.... okay... a few that you won't REALLY regret when you wake up the next day *smirk* You can sit up and watch television, going from infomercial to infomercial until you want to shove the t.v. out the window. (Actually, you WOULD regret that the next day) You can read a book until you pass out over it, and wake up with your face mashed into a book the next day. You can sit at your computer and play games until you can't keep your eyes open, then suffer the next day at work because "I just wanna get ten more points in cubis, I swear" you can lay on your back and stare up at the ceiling in the dark, watching the ceiling fan spin into oblivion and count the number of times car lights come in through your window as they pass, until you pass out from sheer BOREDOM. Me? I've done all of em lol. Can't help it. I could get up early, work all day, then come home that night, hop on my treadmill and run forty miles, I'll still be up late, lying in bed counting car lights. What about everyone else? What do you do when sleep takes its sweet time in coming? Are you a counter? A reader? A gamer? Channel Surfer?

Current mood: contemplative Category: Life Most people, when they think of a normal date, think dinner and a movie. With a good date, its not a matter of where you go, or what you do. A good date is who you're with. A long walk, an ordered in pizza and a dvd-- with the right person, it doesn't matter. My dream date... for starters, really good conversation. Spending time with someone that you really find yourself interested in. Someone that makes you forget what time it is, or what you have to do tomorrow, what you were supposed to do today. I've really always searched for that. Someone I could really talk with and feel comfortable really opening up to. Someone I could sit up with, talking all night about everything and nothing. I'm convinced they're out there somewhere. It's only a matter of time, and patience :-)

Current mood: contemplative Category: Life INFJ - the counselor You scored 18% I to E, 26% N to S, 38% F to T, and 26% J to P! Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously. You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely. Your group summary: idealists (NF) Your type summary: INFJ

Current mood: contemplative Category: Life Every one of us, whether we actually want to admit it or not, is guilty of indulging occasionally in escapism. Some hike, some fish, some play violent bloody video games in order to take out their agression or forget the problems that sometimes pile upon our shoulders in our everyday lives. Me? I take long, luxurious, lavender scented baths, with the water almost too hot to stand, (and once in a blue moon I'll pour a cold glass of crisp red wine. I love the feel of the condensation on the cold glass against my water-heated fingertips), and let myself forget, for awhile, the things that keep me up at night. What about you? What is your escape from this world?

Current mood: calm Category: Life We never know what life will bring, Or where it will lead us, Or if tomorrow will ever come. But wherever your path may lead, Whatever life throws at you, I want you to think about one thing.... I've come to learn that the words I've most regretted in my life, Were the ones I never said.

Category: Life 1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. 2. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. 3. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. 4. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. 5. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. 6. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". 7. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. 8. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. 9. Don't stay because you think "it will get better". 10. You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. 11. The only person you can control in a relationship is YOU. 12. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. 13. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? 14. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. 15. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. 16. If something bothers you, speak up. 17. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. 18. You cannot change a man's behavior. 19. Change comes from within. 20. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. 21. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. 22. Never let a man define who you are. 23. Never borrow someone else's man. 24. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. 25. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. 26. All men are NOT dogs. 27. You should not be the one doing all the bending . . . compromise is a two-way street. 28. You need time to heal between relationships . . . there is nothing cute about baggage . . . 29. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. 30. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you . . . a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals . . . look for someone complementary . . . not supplementary. 31. Dating is fun . . . even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr Right. 32. Make him miss you sometimes . . . when a man always knows where you are, and you're always readily available to him, he takes you for granted. 33. Never move into his mother's house. 34. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. 35. Keep him in your radar, but get to know others.

Current mood: bored Category: Life ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it. FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight. EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling. ELEVEN . Don't judge people by their relatives. TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.. FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson! SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions. EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship. NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.