I won't sit here and lie or even try to deny the fact...that I still think of you everyday. How could I not...this month makes 6 years...6 long years of happiness and heart ache. Like some friendships some relationship are just not meant to be forever. You have other stuff that needs to be taken care of now...things on your mind...things that are not of me and what was once thought to be ours. Even when leaving you seem so upset. You said it was because you did not want to go...but I think go you must... It did not take long before more information started to flood my way, of all the days and nites, the reason for the things that you denied, and even more lies if not half truths. I don't understand things that you say or do and it might not be meant for me too...but the pain still lingers behind...in a house once home...a heart once filled and now broken. How we always seem to go so wrong from one drastic to aonther...from love to pure hate... There is no forgiving this time...no letting it creep back within.
Someone told me one day a long time ago when the hate out ways the love you will know. You will feel it so bad that it will rule your body and mind. I never believed her and thought that could never happen to me. How could I ever hate someone that was my world, my all, and what I lived for. Only time would tell me and I would find some scary truth in her words. A truth I never wanted to know or face...but I have and I hate it more than anything
