you come for a world with nothing...you strive and struggle to get somewhere only to find that there are others in this world only trying to beat you down....your kindness they pray apon....your willingness to help.....your need and desire for love...they look for the weekness.... kill and destroy that is the aim the goal....why.....why try to bring someone else unhappiness...is it because your so jealous of what others have...think about this for awhile...look within and a time when you tried to hurt someone either with words or actions...think what made you do it....pressure from others....plain old jealous.... wanting what others have....or just plain stupid....not thinking of how that might hurt another...we do this all the time...all of us...today if someone told me that i would be where i am now i would laugh at them....im alone...very much so...its mostly by choice....i have friends....but not anyone close that i share my true inner feeling and wishes with....i have many....but im the type of person that i dont show people much of my lifes wishes and wants....i keep it bottled up just for me....my life has been hard but i feel that its made me a better person....an extremely strong independent woman....its easy to give up and let people walk all over you....but its a strong person who can stand up and say what they want ,need and desire...my grandmother told me once that no matter how bad you think someone is there is always something that you can find good about them...and to look for it and work with it....i cant remember now why she told me that...but it willl always be with me...i make it part of my everyday life....yesterday i was at my all time low.....i remembered those words and words from another....his word where....be happy....be glad....if your sad youll think your sad but if you think your happy you will be...be happy with what you have....ive been working on that one....let me tell you its a toughy....i have many good things in my life....my son...my friend (who will remain nameless) but he knows who he is....kenny the sunshine in my life...the little bit of freshness thats been keeping me sane....so in other words... the three main men in my life....thats whats been keeping me going...look around others have it far worse than you and be thankful...truely work at it....be happy...dont let it pass you by....nice words dont kill they heal....love my three boys....
