x EvilKandy x Stoner Bitch's blog: "I took a look at myself and came to grips with what I found"

I was having a conversation with a close friend of mine last night...and we were talking about how we have been treated in past relationships...and so I've come to realize lately every guy I have had a serious relationship with has fucked me over.  Be it cheating or be it just treating me like shit they fuck me over one way or another.  I've been cheated too many times. So the question arises is there something wrong with me or do I just have shitty taste in guys?  It makes me nervous almost to start a relationship with someone for fear that they will do me wrong...again.  I am sitting here struggling with myself because I don't want to be hurt again.  I am so sick of giving myself over completely to a man just to have him break my heart again and again.  My ex fiance cheated on me while he was deployed in bangkok, not once but 4 times.  With 3 different women.  While I was faithful to him over here in the states as I went crazy from sex depervation.  Just the point is that I'm sick of guys fuckin other women while they are supposed to be with me.  I really have had some shitty guys in my life.  Maybe I'm just horrible in bed?  haha or maybe its cause I wont put out right away...whatever it is...I'm sick of it.