2352561's blog: "Interesting!"

Sometimes in the pursuit of happiness.. we lose ourselves.

If you had just seen, I'd be 'here' to stay.. Instead, I led myself on this crazy pursuit.. to seek something. To seek what lies at the end of the rainbow. I led myself through the great unknown.. and everywhere I went, it was your face I seen. With every whisp of wind across my face, it was your kiss.. I felt.  I followed what I thought was my heart.. only to find out, you can't follow, what isn't yours to begin with.

I begin everyday.. with the still beating heart, that once was, mine. And someday again, it will be again. It will fall in line with the pulse.. that calls it forth.

Like there is night to day. Theres a puzzle missing it's piece.. It's deciding, does it belong to my puzzle..or yours?

*status unknown*

Baby, do you know what real love is supposed to be? than you should let me love you...

It's a shame you just don't know your worth... from your head to your toes... I just wanna show you your worth... give you everything you want and need... good love and protection..

so you know what love is supposed to be... Let me be the one to give you everything... If you just let me love you (h) [6]

Rings true on more lvl's than you know....

I should have seen it coming...
I should have started running..
You gave me hope..
I gave you love..
Together it wasn't enough.

I could have given up..
I could have walked away...
I renewed my hope..
you threw my love away..
Together.. it broke my heart...

I know I can't love enough for 2..
I can try.. to slam that door shut..
but you keep.. pullin me back..
leaving me cold.. n out of breathe...

Never again should I open this broken heart of mine...
for it's yours for the taking... <3

Today I pray for you,

you are the center of this heart.

I always looked to you,

for everything I do.

You are the reason,

I found this little light of mine.

Please, take away this hurt,

this pain...

Without you,

my world won't be as bright.

You've taught me to use,

this little voice of mine...

How can this world...

survive w/o you in it?

Please... take this pain,

this hurt, a heart full of holes.

I will keep up faith,

faith you've taught me to use...

please take this hurt,

broken heart full of pain....

When life hands me lemons, I wanna cut them open and throw them at my enemies... thank god for you... your too far away and I throw like a sissy girl.. :D

The past is just that,

can't you see?

I would give you the world,

if only you'd look past yourself.

when you smile at me,

I feel like everything is alright.

My heart aches,

more then it should.

I can't take what gets dished out,

can't you see?

I front like I am tough,

but.. deep inside..

I'm as fragile as they come.

You've over powered this

lil broken heart...

and shattered it all over again..

When life throws me a curveball,

I get left...winded.

You've put me on a pedastal,

I just can't compete.

My heart isn't mine to keep...

take it and call it yours..

shattered or not.. it's not mine to keep...

I write as though you'll read it..
I wish as though.. you'll somehow.. give me what I want.
Yet, you hold back, like your carrying a secret.
One I wish I could help you burden..

I look out the window at life's... bleak existence.
It's somehow not so bright..
Not so warm.. as I remembered it.
Yet, when peering into your eyes.
Everything somehow is made right.

Asking myself questions over and over...
Can't you see, what I see?
Can't you feel.... what I feel?
Strangely with you there..
Everything is still left unanswered..

Haunting me...

Wishing.. hoping...
Wanting... needing..
Aren't those all just the same of the same?

Never again will you hold power over me..

Never again, will you hold my heart in your hands.

For I am.. Whole again.

I have you to thank... for making me strong as I am.

You won't ever know me again.

For I am.. whole again.

Never again will you judge me...

Never again, will you hurt me..

For I am done picking up the pieces.

You know I am better off w/o you..

For I am... whole again.

You gave me the chance at life again..

You gave me strength.. I forgot I had.

for I am... whole w/o you!

Never again.. will you get this chance..

to shatter what isn't yours.

~~* (h) Lifes moments are too precious to waste on you (h) &~~ {{Just randomness at thought}}

Maybe if I close my eyes... I wouldn't picture you there anymore.. Maybe if I covered my ears... I wouldn't hear your voice anymore.. If I covered my mouth... maybe I'd never speak your name again.

But in the end, my heart speaks louder then any words. It's eyes are constantly on you.. Your voice.. is all it knows.  It has a brain.. all it's own. So when my ♥ [heart] sees the world for all that it is... It's consumed with you all around.

I look and I see you for what you are..

Couldn't  you just understand?

I can't make you see... what I see..

Your like the first flower that blooms in Spring.

Your like the first snow fall in the winter..

The ocean roaring during the summer months..

The color changing leaves beautiful for the world to see.

But.. in the end.. I can't make you see.. what I see.

What your staring at... is me.

Contaminating everything..

Before you tell yourself... it's just a different scene..

Remember, what your staring at... is me.

I am not perfect, never claimed to be.

I am what you make of me..

I often watch to see your expression..

I wait to see.. if you'll smile..

Just that once.. to make my &hearts; [heart]

go.. *pitter patter pitter patter... thud*

While your outside looking in.. 

Just remember...

What your staring at.... is me.

Sitting all alone... inside your head.

Sometimes life throws you a curve ball.. But, I often wish that life would just strike me out  and be done with the game.

I always say that I don't need you,

I wonder my distance and am somehow driven back to you.

I can't take this pain,

This life full of holes.

I wish you would see what I see...

Maybe someday soon you'll be free.

Take this life.. and call it yours.

For I am.. in a world you'll never be.

Just randomness in itself.. figured I'd scribble something and call it writing...

xoxo ♥