Blogs nomraly help me out they let me get all my thoughts in order. If that can even be a possiblity but ya never know! If you readin this I will warnin ya now it could jump around and not make any sence but when does anything from me lol
There has been a lot goin on lately. Been doin a lot thinkin. How old friends outta the blue one day decided to pick the phone up and call you and with just one phone call can open years of memories some good some bad but they all add up and make you who you are today! Well I had a GF call me that I haven't talk to in some time we were catchin up on times and lettin each other in on a glimpse of each others lives. She brought something to my attention. Helped me out and didn't even know it. She told me she loved how I always handled everything and that I wasn't stupid i always saw everything that was goin on weather I said anythin about it I did see it. With her tellin me that made me realize for all the mixed emotions and everything that I have been goin threw lately has been partialy my fault. I am the guilty one of puttin the blinders on myself! Ive seen but just don't want to ackoledge it. And by me thinkin i have the blinders on no matter how much I tell myself I still know. So I guess it comes to sink or swim time and ive always said im a swimmer and when any time like thise comes up you can find me doin the back-stroke with a finger in the air because Im not sinkin!! lol
I have started the count down to my vacation!! Sunday needs to hurry and get here! Lacey and I in a vechile for 10 hours this will be interesting!! I can't wait for it to get out and be free how great that is goin to feel!!!
