ok so im just bored. felt like posting a blog because its been awhile since i have. i dont really have anything to say. well maybe i do. here lately theres been a lot on my mind about a bunch of stuff thats been going on. my best friend jp just moved back and its great having him around. we havent been as close to each other since kevin died. its kinda weird being around him and its hard not knowing what couldve happend. and its weird because you never realize how much you have until its gone. we take for granted so much what we have. and another thing, relationships. you can go through everyday loving someone without being able to tell them. hiding the pain each time they mention another guy/girls name and just wishing you could tell them everything without ruining the friendship. left wondering why no matter how much the person their chasing after hurts them and your right there everytime they need someone it pretty much goes left unnoticed. its when their gone forever that you realize you regret not telling them how you really feel. and now your left asking the question what couldve been if i just wouldve been honest? but still you do the same thing after going through it once. no matter how hard you try you just cant open up to the one you love because you think you know they want nothing more than friends. and as each day passes you start losing more and more. its just weird how it all comes together. i guess thats why they say love stinks...but i guess you just gotta live day by day and wait for the right moment. i guess theres nothing more left to say...
