Devilicious's blog: "Im Ashamed"

Im ashamed of who I've become. I am not the same person I was years back. I used to be weak and then I got stronger. Then I went back to being this weak person that I barely reconized. i can't seem to find that person. The bad ass again. I let people walk on me, hurt me. Somedays I wonder why get up cause I'm worried about how I am gonna feel that day. i used to wonder as a teenager how much can one person take, how much pain, how much bullshit, how many lies. Guess i haven't learned anything different from way back then. The world is pain. The world is pain, The world is lies. People have lost their honesty and their morals. They don't mind screwing the next person over. Or hurting the person clothest to them. As long as they get what they want. its sad that the world has become such a way that its so automatic for people to behave like that.  So easy to divorce or throw away what you have cause theres always another person willing to take you on. Its second nature. I sit back and look at the generations growing up wondering if they will be the ones to change it.  But I wonder how they possibly could when they themselves haven't been taught how not to be like that. And live the life everyday with their parents. Its so ingrained in them. And the world is only getting more messed up. So how could they ever turn out right and know the path to take to help this world back on to a better way. Everyone is pushing their own things into this world as things we all need to accept. But its only making the world more fragmented. More divided. Nothing is ever lasting. Nothing is worth anything anymore to anyone. Because everything in their mind can be easyly replaced. Im ashamed. I truly am.