For the last thirteen years I have done some very stupid shit. I have had sex with multiple guys, but I have slept next to only a handful. Right now there is only one I want to sleep with for the rest of my life.
I don't want to feel just like the teddy bear that you sleep with, I want to feel the love that goes with it! I want to be someone's, baby!!! I want to be the one you want to come home to, to love and cherish. Not the one you only want to hold when it's comvenient or when it's the only thing you have right now.
Do you know what it's like to be someone's, baby? I did along time ago. I used to be someone's baby. They stopped loving me, just like everyone does. I can't do anything right. I can't make them love me, but I can't stop loving them.
To be someone's baby is holding on to them for dear life never letting go. Treating them like they are the only one you want. Kissing them goodnight, holding them tight, making love to them not just having sex. Not just having them there becuase you feel you owe them something.
To be someone's baby is like closing your eyes and feeling all the love inside reaching that orgasmic stage, without the sex. Knowing you are loved by that person and hearing that you are loved by them is the ultimate orgasm.
The on the other side of it. If you love them and they cannot show you that in return, then you know you are not their baby. You are the one on the back burner for someone else to find. You may love them, but it doesn't mean they love you.
One of these days I can only pray to be that person's baby.
