I've come to a point in my life, being 32, single, no kids and never been married or even close to, that I've come to wonder if this is it? Is this the life that was chosen for me? Because this is not the life that I had grown up dreaming about. Don't get me wrong, I can't complain about my life seeing that I do have a good career, I have my own stuff and money and can go and do whatever I want to do. BUT, there is always this empty void in my life. I would love nothing more than to share my everything with that "one" person I can call my best friend, lover and confidont. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. I have so much love to give to someone that it kills me inside sometimes. I meet people and come to understand that either I'm not what they're looking for, or they're not ready to be in a committed relationship, or they're not what I'm looking for. I don't want to settle for just somebody. I want that one that moves me that makes me smile from sun-up till sun-down. I want that feeling inside that nobody can take away. I want it all. And I definetly want him to feel the same way about me. I know once given the chance, I'm worth it all.......and I'm not going to settle for less than that or second best. I know who I am, what I can offer to a relationship and all the love I have for that special someone.
But is my life suppossed to be Miss Independent forever? I don't like hanging out with different people all the time, having to memorize who likes what, and all that crap about someone that really isn't interested in me at all unless it's a booty call and I'm surely not like that. I love to go out and have fun and talk to people but I want more to life than just a party every weekend. I want love in my life and real true love this time. So when's it my turn?
