i use to love to love
I use to love…..to love…naw….I mean really…, love to love But somewhere along the way……between time and a pause That love for love….turned into a fear ….of love Of the games …..before the love Of the fighting…during the love Of the jelousey….after the love Of the time when u could feel the end coming…but could do nothing but watch as the dynamite …just Sizzled Of the ….time after its over…. When the only thing u could do was ball up into a ball…. And cry…..n hate…..n love…..n hate…n long…n cry When all u could see…when u closed ur eyes…. Was that face….those lips…..those eyes…peering out of the darkness Yhea…know what it is to love…. Then he told me,…. What was mine was his too… He told me those lips I loved ….loved him too….tasted him tooo….. Those big brown eyes I love…..had…and will continue..to gazed at him in mid stoke…too Yhea beleave me …when I tell u…… I use to love…..to love But now….i cant see the stars for the clouds… Cant feel the air under my wings…for fear of the cats…wanting to devour my flesh Cant enjoy the crisp night air for the smog……the cool shade for the blistering sun…man I cant… I cant love…. I miss loving… I miss it… But its safer this way…. I remember it though….. The way…it…covered me and kept me warm…like a thick wool blanket on a…. Freezing …Chicago night……..i remember what it was to love….i …do…I use to love …to love !
BY LAJUANE 1998
