Its been TOO long since I have gotten laid and you know what?? ITS DRIVING ME NUTS! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO pent up inside it isnt even funny. And I owuld LOVE to have sex with someone, special. But I want it to be more than sex. And I really like this guy and I really would love to stare into his gorgeous fucking blue eyes, and just MOLEST THE EVER LOVING SHIT OUTTA HIM! I wanna have sex with a guy I care about and not just anyone. I am not like that. My ex boyfriend Billy wants me back, but I really cant see myself with him. He has shown me he is way to irresponsible and I cant be with an irresponsible guy. I care about Billy, but just as a friend. He really screwed his life up doing what he did in the past and now he is on probation for it until he year 2018. Its too much of a pain dating a guy on probation. I have done it a couple times already, and I really dont care to relive the experience. I would rather date (If I was ready) a guy that follows the law, is not on probation, is cating, sweet, kindhearted and values alot more in a relationship than sex. A guy i dated, actually more than one, Hugh and tony...The only thing they seemed to care about was sex. The only time tony or hugh even acted like I existed was when they wanted to get laid. Other than that, they both treated me like shit. I cant stand that. If I am EVER gonna date again, i need a REAL man. Someone that cares about me and calues me as well as my thoughts and feelings. A Guy that doesnt just think of himself. And since I havent felt that I finally found him (yet), I am not dating anyone. I have to protect my heart, cuzz lets face it, If I dont, no one else will. LOL.
