KikiSAR family's blog: "i need help"

i just wanted to say im sry to everyone i wont be on cherry tap anymore after the 7th im moving i love you all and im going to miss you so much...........

Damn the pain it is everywhere i go no one can see it but me pain in my heart pain in my mind pain in my soul pain every breath and every word i see pain in others eyes pain is everywhere to me i dont know what to do to get rid of the pain it stucks inside me like a soul trying to get out of a body in my mind racing like a mouse looking for cheese in my heart burning like the eternal flames of hell i need to get rid of my pain

gasping for breath dieing to be herd pain every breath crying on every word you scream so loud hoping to be herd but the room you are in muffles the sound....what do you do they point and stare as you go to the back of the room all scared are you a project or just something to look at who knows dont be scared look twords the light you have to fight to make it right hear my voice follow the sound and before you know it you will be on solid ground

am i atractive i dont think i am but people tell me diffrently so please look at my pics of me tell me what you honestly think of me i know the truth what do you think

calling all men i want a ct hubby bad so if you are willing to make a hook up talk to me i want one......................anywayz hope one of ya men out there will be my hubby

who knows how i feel who knows what it feels like to be rejected who knows what it feels like to have your heart torn out who knows

is it so wrong to just want to be loved i dont get it i dont ask for much at all juat that someone loves me for me i dont care about anything else i just wanna be loved thats all......... and when i think i found it i didnt so where do i go from there i am lonley i want someone with me all the time i dont know what to do anymore so is it wrong to just wanting to be loved

funny how shit works out you think you love someone and they feel the same way and then the next they wont talk to you i dont get it i try to understand but i reall cant anywayz hit me up people tell me why shit like this happens

told him dont know if he saw it though kinda hope he did and dint all at the same time so i guess we wills ee what he think about me im probably rushing i probably ran him away but i cant stop the way i feel

How do you tell someone that you have feelings for them even though you just met them How do you tell someone u just met that you think u love them How do you tell someone that u never felt this way before How do you do that...... How...