Yeah, he left me 2 days ago for some other girl. He said he didn't know what he wants and he needs time to think. He also said that he's not with either one of us now. He's confused and got's some soul searching to do.
You know, when ever someone would do this to me i'd just let them go and break up with them. I don't know why i'm holding on to him, well I do, but in a way I want to let go, because if he does it once he will do it again, just like cheaters. Right?
I just can't stop thinking about him. I can't stop crying for him. I can't even keep no food down right now, and I told him I would for him ( yes, i was fucked up like that who cares? ).. I stopped everything that was I guess bad just for him.
I was going to move to Texarkana, Texas, in about2 months, but I said no and I cancled eeverything. Yes, even a metting with some of the big music dogs down there. Just so I can be with him. Then he does this??? God, I'm retared. It never pays for me to be inlove something always happens..
I said that I was going to give up on love before. Cold faced. I was never going to date any more guys ( or girls ) and just be me and do what I needed to do for my career, but then he came along and made me feel like this. Made me think about him all the time. Opened my heart with the KEY. And now he breaks it to get out.
Why are all guys like this? And don't go sayin I can get better. All I want is him. He's so sweet, caring, just everything. Not to mention fucking SEXY. Why are all guy's like this??
( Just for a little extra, the girl he's leaving me for don't even live around him, she lives in a new state, did I mention UGLY AS HELL? I know i'm not all that, but still. Everyone I showed a picture of her to said they wouldn't touch her with a 10 foot pole. And I don't blame them.)
