Last night a reconnection was felt within my soul,
An uplifting rejoyce of comfort and serenity was gained,
It seems that this discomfort i felt has been a very long road,
I look within my wants and desires and see that lately it hasn't rained,
A true connection is what i lost with his fist, many months back,
With every blow to my body and ego,
My stupid ass kept letting him come back,
Like leaves in the wind one day i had enough,
Be it another reason to make him leave,
and just so i could have my sanity back,
No tears have fallen this time due to my inner strength,
His ways are not missed and his drama of rain can not hurt me anymore or bring any pain,
I have always wondered why a man does this to one he claims to love,
Why control and be abusive when the other one involved loves you with no disdaine,
Happy days once,
were a cherished part of my life,
Smiles and laughter from the kids,
when they'd talk bout me being your wife,
The trips we took and the times i never turned my back,
I wonder why i was so blind and actually wanted you back,
Now a new chapter is being written in my life,
I no longer hold on to the love for you and the children,
All i see is your hate and spite,
You can say what you want but you know others are aware of the truth,
You can try to lie to yourself and say that i want you,
When the truth of the matter is,
I have moved on with my life,
No longer wishing and hoping that you wouldnt have any strife,
I have been surrounded by the love and compassion of my friends,
The ones who know me and know my heart and soul needs to mend,
So to address what you may say about me,
I am a beautiful soul,
You can never again hurt me,
My eyes are lifted high,
where they should have been all along,
You can't take away the hurt that you caused,
so please just leave me alone,
I have changed all the numbers and don't care to hear from you,
I do wish you the best,
though the best was never good enough for you, You need to look within your soul and see who you really are,
before you can have the happiness that you've searched for within your heart,
You had alot of drama,
some not within your control i understand,
I just hope that you find your way,
and start being a real man,
one that is thoughtful and not always into hisself,
taking for granted someones love for you,
I pray this poem will help,
For you to see that i really don't wish you any harm,
All i ask for is to be left alone,
just act as if i live horrendously far,
Good luck!!
You'll see one day what you have lost,
A person can only take so much,
before they move on,
You lost my love for you with the choking and the fists,
You say i am bitter,
but in all honesty you know diffrent,
so i'll leave it at this,
Written By: Azalia
Written On: July 4th, 2006
