I really like someone here. (and I am sure they know who they are. ) But I was relaly hurt by hugh larson (Demonstar) when we dated and I am having a hard time trusting ANY guys right now. (Plus I amm still hurt by "Demonstar".) (And I just LOVE how he tells me I am his crush and then he changes his back to his "precious" SweetLyps4u. FUCK OFF HAL. Quit your bullshit. Go BE with sweetlyps then, twofaced jerk. AANYWAYS! I really like SexyFatassBeast (Andrew) but I am SOOO not wanting a relationship. I am still hurt and I have ALOT of pent up anger with Hal (demonstar) still. He REALLY hurt me. And I am finding it so hard to even wanna date anyone now. I wanna stay as a far from men as possible (in the intimate sense. I dont know what to do. And when SexyFatassBeat and I talk, its really nice. And i feel fairly comfortable with him when we are talking.But I DONT want some guy thats just gonna come down here from where-ever and expect me to have sex right away. I just need to know that it would be more than sex. I didnt write this to hurt you andrew, I really like you. I am just USED to guys treating me like shit, using me for sex, and not caring about me. And I want the next guy i date to be different. I am just being cautious. I just wanna know what you are looking for, and if you want something "real". I dont wanna get hurt anymore. I just cant take any heartache. I think Hugh "Demonstar" and "Sweetlyps4u" should just hook up and get it over with. YOU KNOW YOU WANT HER DEMONSTAR!( SO QUIT LYING TO MY FUCKING FACE AND SAYS YOU DONT) (Men....cant live with 'em, can't shoot 'em,......LOL!) And from the way sexy fatass beast talks most of the time, he expects me to "put out" right away when he comes down here. (IF he ever does.) Look dude, I like you, but I am NOT a walking vagina. I have FEELINGS. And just because I like you doesnt mean I am gonna give it to you the forst time we meet. No way. I am not a slut ok "DUDE"??!?!?!?!? If you really wanted to be with me and cared about me, it wouldnt matter whether I gave you sex today, or a month from now. As long as you are with me, correct? (Thats the way it SHOULD be.) A realtonship (a TRUE one) is based on LOVE, COMMUNICATION, TRUST, HONESTY, LOYALTY, and FAITHFULNESS. (And thats just a few....) If all you want is to "bust a nut" you should buy a prostitute and pay her, shes will gladly do it for you. I LOVE sex but I DO NOT wanna be used for sex. I've already been there, done that, and it fucking hurts. Especially when I cared about the guy and the only time he gave a shit about me was when he wanted p***y. GET A CLUE! If you care about me, you want me for more than just my vagina, you would like me for my personality, etc. So if I met you, Andrew, and didnt give you sex for a month, would you still wanna be with me? Or would you leave? THATS the true test of someones feelings. Are they feelings from you heart, Andrew, ir your pants? LOL. I just had to say these things. Now I feel much better.
