Ok so this week has been horrible yet unlike any other week I've ever had. Friday and Saturday I was sick throwing up and couldn't keep most food I tried to eat down (since having my gastric bypass surgery it's kinda like a trial and error sort of thing.)
I broke someone's heart that I did care about, just not in the way that I should have cared for them. I wish I could control my heart and feelings, but if I don't follow my heart how is that going to benefit me in the long run? I still kinda mentally torn up about this whole matter.
And finally I spent 3 days this past week with someone I love very much. Someone I go back years with. I really would like to think that they've changed because of how they've been towards me and I truly hope thats the case. We're going to see our fave band Type O Negative in May and it's gonna be awesome. I know that they really like me because they told me they did. I'm just waiting for them to appropriately tell me we're "an item". Granted, with the physical and romantic gestures they've shown me I'd like to think that we are. I think they're just scared and got a lot of shit going on in their head. I think I need to give fate more credit for the turn of events that happened with us. That's all I really have left to say.
Goodnight all. It's 4AM and I'm sleepy and got a toothache.
