idk whats gonna happen...last week manuel told me that he just needed sumtime to think about things, clear his head. hes been stressed out alot latley...so i was lk aight kool.....he called me saturday....talked 4 lk 7 min....he told me he was going back 2 the Marines. because it aint worth a shit here. n if he dies over there he dont care. but hes changed soo much hes not the same person ne more....he didnt even tell me he loved me or nething lk he always does *n my closest friends know that thats 1 thing hes ALWAYS telling me* idk he says that he hopes things dont change between us....he wants 2 be w/me....but it seems lk he pushing me away.....lk yesterday. he said he would call me when he got home.....yeah he didnt call.....i called him...but no answer....so its w/e i guess...damn its always lk this! everything is good 4 a while...then sumthin always has 2 happen .we'll jus see what happens *N ERIC I KNOW WHAT UR THINKING....BUT JUS DONT B TELLIN ME STUFF CUZ I DONT WANNA HEAR IT. I LOVE U BROTHER, BUT EVERYTIME U TELL ME STUFF IT MAKES ME FEEL LK SHIT*
