I cry,it does me no good.It hurts,I no longer have
anything to lose or hide.I am in pain and few see it.It can't be fixed.I am supposed to follow the rules.I forgot them.I won't next time.There won't be a need for them.My body aches and my mind is racing.I want to sleep! Sleep doesn't want me tonight.I want to dream,but there won't be any.There are so many lies in my life,I slowly weed through them.One by one I find them and remove them from my life.I am not perfect,but neither are you.I know what I will leave behind in my life,do you? I smile but not often and it is usually not a real smile.I blame no one for my mistakes.They are mine and mine alone.I just didn't want to think of them as that at the time. I wanted them to be the right things. I am sure there will be more.I am who I am.I am nothing more.So,I will just cry some more,although it does me no good and no one will see.