Ok, heres a little background before i start ranting. Im currently working for my grandparents. they have a small business doing legal paperwork for construction companies. i.e. prelim notices, mechanics liens things of that sort. ive been working here for 3 years. after 3 years i am now making 9$ an hour. no benifits. i only get major holidays off.
my grandma while i love her to death just cant seem to get her head clear enough to make a complete sentance sometimes. her husband is a 75 year old nearly blind cicillian man. i can usually handle the stress of this job no problem. but i do get frustrated with her when she cant remember things she said yesterday, a week ago, or even 5 min ago. sometimes we get into arguments because of this. she then of course relates them to joe in whatever form she actually remembers them and i end up getting the 3rd degree for shit i never even said or did. and of course i cant say i never said or did that, because they pull the we are you employers blah blah blah blah. it dosent matter what actually happened because they are always right. joe is the worst about this because he is the kind of person that if he told you that he was 9 feet tall there is nothing you could do to make him admit otherwise. he is always right fuck what rality actually is.
i could easily go back to constrtuction and make better oney, but the business pays for things like the house and other stuff. they seem to believe that anyone would come in and do this. i know for a fact that no one who didnt know and love them would put up with this shit for barely over minimum wage.
so that being said i feel like i cant get out because i dont wanna see them lose the business and possibly the house.
but at the same time im tired of being beratted and run down for shit that i didnt do. the worst part is that my mom used to work for them and she pulled some rally fucked up shit. they kep basing everything off "when sherrie worked for us" we did this, or this is how it worked. they need to realize im not my mother, and the wost thing they do is saying shit like "ur just like ur mother" i cant stand my mother but thats another story all together.
i mean im getting royaly screwed here, i work over 40 hours a wekk and only ever get payed for 40. ive had 1 sick day in the last 3 years. and they get all their notarizing of documents for free because i do it. i should be making 10 bucks a signature for those things and they get them for free! wait i take that back i got a 25 cent raise for doing those.
joe has nothing to do but sit and think of how im fucking up my life and what he thinks i should do differently. actually he does that for everyone so im not special in any way, but beause i live with them i get to hear it more often.
im just seriously on the brink of losing it, and i dont know what to do.
any advice or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
-slowly slipping into insanity
DaviD/ AKA MaDDnEsS
ok to add a little more
thanks for the comments thus far.
one of my biggest problems is that alot of what i have i owe to them, they helped me get a car that im still paying off, they have helped me keep it running,they give me a place to live, for 100 bucks a month when i couldnt possible afford to live on my own yet. let me rephrase , my grandma has done all this for me.
she is the only person my whole life who has always ben there. bicking me up when someone else dropped the ball.
i just feel that i owe her so much that i cant bail on her, i honestly dont give two shits about joe. his need to voice his opinion is why half our family wont even speak to my grandma anymore. the man is worthless as a human being.
i just cant bring myself to leave her here to do this all by herself. as much as she frusterates me, and seriously annoys me i cant do that to her. she has enough stress from his health problems that the business going down the tubes would totaly wreck her.
i wish my conscience would go away again so that i can get the fuck outa here, move back to Ohio with my dad. lol
