LastCondor's blog: "I Dont even know what this is"

I never that i'd see the day

when friendship ties just fade away

and all thats left and here to stay

are memories that hurt to say

those times were fun but now theyre done

i miss those days of friends and fun

i miss the days where we'd just run

not from the cops but just for fun

not cuz someone has got a gun

or because we want some drugs

i lost my brother to them son

i lost my bois to somethin else

a pain that i have never felt

it comes around just like a plague

and rots out your fuckin brain

im tired of this girl my main

i wish you would just drop her plain

cuz you know you not the same

and ima fuckin stay the course

cuz thats what fuckin friends are for

so when you here and need me man

Condor will bring you home again.

I dont understand the pain i feel,

is it fake or is it real,

never one to piss and moan,

but its cold when your all alone.

I miss holding her in my arms,

her sweet scent is one that haunts

so lord i pray please take away the pain,

its been almost a year this aint a damn game

my lifes been shot and its slowly bleeding out,

and no one hears my anguished shout.

i've made it loud as a bell it follows me everywhere i go

the devil promised to make it stop so i gave him my soul

but instead of that pain he gave me another

so how do you win when you dont have a means?

Im tryin to get out but i need to stop and take a drink

its scary in hell and no one understands

that what i carry around hurts more than can take a man

i wouldnt pass it on, even if i hate you

because it hurts to bad and it would just waste you.

I wish you could see just how messed up it is

and i've had this in my heart since i was a kid

Alfonzo please forgive me for not bein around

but we got that mutha fucker who put you in the ground

you and i was only six and it wasnt time for you to go

but we caught him my brother so now you can rest your soul.

You have your own angel now where the hells mine?

i need a pretty little hunie to keep me from losing my mind

and i dont just want another fling to go to waste,

i want a girl who can take me away from this place

take away the pain, take away the sorrow

take it all so i can actually face the morrow.

cuz right now i sit in bed all day

and even though the suns out i just dont wanna play

so if you think you can be the sunshine of my life,

please just understand that i've had a hard life.