These past few days really have been some of the worst days for me in recent time. Just one piece of bad news after the other again and again, and I know how Emo this sounds but atleast for right now it feels like life has no intention of throwing me anything good my way. I really hope that all of this is happening for a good reason cuz if it isn't, then I truly am in for a rough ride in the weeks to come. And on top of all this crappyness, I can feel that a great period of depression might be sneaking up on me. My family has a history of being Bipolar, and luckily I only have a mild case of it (unlike my mom) I don't have dramatic highs and lows but every few months I tend to sink into a deep depression and this one just came at a bad time.
It's probably half shitty circumstances and half self doubt and I just hope it doesn't get the best of me. I have been doubting myself lately, and with all this added shit that's been flung my way I just know it's gonna get worse. Also I'm having trouble sleeping which is probably why I'm writing this cuz god knows I'm not a blog person. I don't really know where I was planning on going with this but maybe I'm just killing time and trying not to let my thoughts fuck with my head and let my depression drag me down. But in the end I still can't sleep, and only time will get me thru this.
