candiapples's blog: "i am evil"

As I sit here I think of all the evilness with in me... I want to cause someone pain at this very moment.. I have no one in mind but I know I must release the feeling inside me.. I want anyone to know what it is like to feel like the end could not come soon enough... I have asked before if murder was legal would you do it?... I think I would... when people first meet me they say I scare them and i must ask them why... They say it is because of the look in my eyes.. i don't care who hurts.. after all people who feel emotions are looking for pain... I feel why can't I be the one to cause it.. I enjoy the pain and missery of others... I know if people hurt the ones i care about they will pay.. i will make sure of it.. they won't know when or how but it will happen.. have i scared you yet? sometimes i scare myself with what goes on in my mind... if only i could tell it all. people would think the master of hell has come to earth... i enjoy causing myself pain.. the slicing of flesh doesn't hurt.. the blood only last a few minutes... the scares will fad.. but i am told it is wrong.. so i don't do it.. i want to cause pain to some one...

Can You Blame Me" When anger consumed you, what do you do? When all you feel is hate and jealousy, where do you turn? When all goes wrong, how do you fix it? When you have nothing left, what do you do? If murder was legal, would you do it? These are all just thoughts of an evil mind. You may ask why, How could I think such horrible thoughts. Honestly, when your heart and mind are consumed with such hater you would as well. Any kind of relationship can make one go insane. The true question is, can you blame me? I am not as nice as one may think. Slipping into the darkness of such evil is all I have. These feelings prevent one from being hurt over and over. Any other emotion is just asking for pain and suffering