Anyone that knows me knows that is what I hate the most. I hate these damn humans. But they seem to be everywhere I go. Why can't I get away from them? My head has been killing me these last few days. Jason and Will wants me to go to the ER. However, everyone knows that I am too stubborn to do so. I believe that I will be fine without medical treatment. Why go just to get a high bill for them to tell me they don't know whats wrong with me? I'll pass. I did that enough a few years back. I haven't been to the hospital since 2007 and will not start going again. I made a deal with Jason but that deal is now void.
Now I have a question, why is it that people have kids only to complain about them constantly? I am not talking about anyone specific but I am talking about humans in general. I get so tired of hearing people complain about their children. If you want to complain about anything else, I am all ears. However, do NOT come to me if you only want to complain about your kids. I guess you shouldn't have had them in the first damn place if you are only going to complain constantly. There are way too many people who come to me about that and I am tired of it. Then everyone says Im the smart one because I don't have kids. I'm sorry but that doesn't make me smart, that makes me a better person. I know that I'm not ready for kids yet so I am not going to bring them into this world just to make it seem like its their fault that they are here. The children do not ask to be born but because unprotected sex was so damn important to you they were born. It is not their fault so stop your damn bitching already! That goes to everyone who complains. Yes, I am sure that some of you will take offense to this but know ahead of time, most of my friend have kids and they all complain so therefore it is not directed towards anyone. If it was directed towards you, I would tell you! So stop thinking the world revolves around you because it doesnt and neither does anything I say or do.
And to those of you that think bad of my and Jason's relationship or think it won't last because of the distance, I have news for you: AT LEAST HE IS DOING SOMETHING TO BETTER HIMSELF!!! Yes, it will be hard but I am very proud of him. Him and Will have been there for me when nobody else has been and for that I thank them both. They are the best. And as long as Jason and I are both working to make this relationship last, it will. We actually get along great. Never once got into an argument which for those who know me know that thats surprising because I love arguing, especially with the person I am dating. But him and I have no reason to argue. And for those who say that someone is hiding something or holding back because we need to argue, that isn't true. We are both completely honest with eachother. We work through everything. Its called communication. Maybe you should try it once in a while. It makes a big difference. Everyone knows I haven't been happy in a long time until recently. Jason makes me happy whereas nobody else could. So why not stop trying to find negative things about him and just be happy for us? Don't I deserve to be happy for once?
I listen to everyone else and try to help them with their problems but the only people there for me are Will and Jason. Well Kaylee tries to be when she can actually get something out of me but normally I tell her not to worry about it that I am fine. But at least she tries and doesn't give up. The rest of you will ask "oh whats wrong" then go back to complaining about everything in your life so that I won't actually talk to you about whats bothering me. Why is this a one-sided friendship? Oh wait, Im used to it. But this is why I can't stand humans.
Those who are my true friends, thank you. To everyone else, the person who I used to be is back. I am no longer going to be there for you unless you show me that you actually care about me. Why should I stress myself out trying to help you when you don't give a damn about me? It is not happening. I don't care if I piss you off or offend you. I am tired of people taking advantage of me. If you have a problem with that, I don't care.
These past few months have been hell for me. But luckily I have Jason and Will to stop me from going completely insane. Yes, I know normally I would make a joke along with everyone else about my sanity but I am being serious here. Hell, most of you won't even read this but I really don't care. This is my life and I will live it how I want. This is my page and I will post anything that I want. Jason treats me great. Just because the person you are with treats you bad does not mean you can talk shit about the person I am with who treats me great and helps me with everything and has never once talked bad about any of my friends. I may not get to see him that often but we are still making it work. I want to thank Will, Jason, and Kaylee for always being there for me. You guys are the best and I love you all! Wait sorry Jason, I <3 You! lol. To everyone else, go elsewhere with your problems because I am no longer listening to them. Hell, even Jeremy has been a better friend to me than anyone else besides those mentioned already. Ok, thank you for reading. Just had to vent blow off some steam. Much Wicked Love lol.
