Some people just don't get it. Pain is what makes you stronger. Its lessons and a blessing. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. So I enjoy that pain, it makes me stronger.
And there comes a time when shit twists your brain, and you learn to enjoy the pain, maybe not the emotional side, but the physical side. It becomes the thing that drives you just a lil harder.
Anger and agony are better then misery. Grow from it. Alter your perception. When you meet a sub, while yes she will love to pleasure her master to please him, sometimes she craves the violence and the darkness.
Even more so when she's had more then a few and needs the pain to remind her she's still alive and not totally disconnected.
You'll thank me later when you understand. No matter what everyone gets to this point. Just a matter if you control it, or it controls you.
