I am with out a dought the dumbest girl alive.
I fell in love with an impossible man but a wonderful man, he ended things but stupidly I remained friends with him and stupidly held on to a hope that one day we would have another shot.
I was an idiot when I let him move in with me along with some girl I never met a year later, and I thought we could live together as friends.
I was stupid enough to think that one day, after living together again he and I could try again to be together, now I find out he wants to be with my roommate,the one I didnt know before she moved in.
I am stupid because I held on to a dumb hope, because I didnt just get on with my life when we ended. I am stupid because after almost 2 years I still love him.
so how do I let one of my dearest friends go? how so I just leave and let it be that? how do I let him go? please tell me how I am supposed to do this? How do I let go of him? when every fiber of my being just wants to be with him? how do I leave? someone please tell me how to do this, I just dont know how.
By the Gods this hurts. every time my heart heals, it gets broken again...when will I be ok?
I am so lost right now.
I know this isnt the type of blog to be posted here but this is the only place I can but this.
