Yeah Yeah Ok.... The only time I do one of these things is to get some sort of crap off my chest. And this is one of those times! I feel sad. I feel empty. I feel alone. I feel lost. I feel numb. I feel tired. Well exhausted really lol. I feel as though I'm expected to be this pillar of strength for everyone around me. Yet I have no one here to be mine! It's not fair. I'm by far not a selfish person. Ask any genuine friend of mine and they will all know my life is 1st and foremost about putting others before myself. It's just me and my nature. But sometimes I step back and ask, what about me? I'm not a very strong person, although I do tend to show that persona on most occasions. I don't like being vulnerable, and I guess that could be why I hide me. I guess I just wish that just once in a while someone wouldn't just expect me to be there, expect me to run around for them, clean up after them, do so much for them, and that they might just one day do something for me. Just every now and then would be nice. Is it too much to wish for?
