I lost touch with her for a long time. A neutral friend braught her to were I lived. when she got out of the car our eyes met we were hooked at first sight. I never was the same after that day. She was all I ever thought about in the back of my mind. I always wanted to hang out, even made excuses to see her. Had my friend call her evey time she came over. Beat the shit out of our friend so she would come pick her up from my house so I could see her. I asked her out she shot me down, (crushed me for real)! I respected the fact that she was not gay. I started dating someone an moved in with her for 1an a half yrs. I tried not to be around my best friend to much cause it hurt me to see her with someone else.When I did see her I could not be in the same room with her it hurt so deeply, an I did not want to get caught watchin her from across the room. I cried every time I left her house or she left mine! Always in the back of my mind I wanted to grab her an kiss her. She used to fight other woman over me. Knocked the dog shit out of her over me in South Park. My girl friend at the time an was living with at the time asked me why did your best friend just knock the shit out of her over you? Caused a fight at my house too.(lol) I was so inlove with my best friend I did not even care that it caused a fight,(it was sexy as hell)! It was my dark secret that I never admitted to, but all my friends knew an never stepped to me about it. She is the one I always ran to when I had a problem with anything or who I was with at the time. I talked to her about everything that was going on with me. I disapeared on her when I relasped. I did not want her to see me that way. I did not really talk to her for almost two years, I ran into her every once in a while. A friend of ours told me that she was getting married an that she hated me an that my best friend did not want anything to do with me anymore.(that killed me inside) I got more strung out with my friends downtown, when I ran into her downtown she tried to talk to me but I always made excuses why I could not talk I had to go. When I heard she moved to California I packed up all my shit an left for Ohio the next day. When I came to visit a neatral friend I saw my best friend an it hurt so much to see her with someone else I left an went back home to the farm. I came back to visit one more time braught mt best friends daughter clothes, spent the night got up an left the next morning never said good bye. I did not come back till July 21st 2007, I stayed with my home boy on the southside for three days. I went downtown to hang out ran into some friends. They took me up to my best friends husbands house to stay an my best friend was not there, I did not know they got separated.( I got so depressed cause she was not there) Her husband called her on the phone an told her someone is here an handed me the phone. When I heard her voice on the phone all those feelings I had for her came right back 100 fold. She flew over to her husbands house I was sitting on the porch smokin when she cut the corner I locked eyes with her I couldnt even speak not even hi nothing.(speechless) She couldnt say anyting to me either she ran into the house. She came back out a couple minutes later took a pic of me on her phone, ran back in the house. I went down to the basement smoked an cried till she left. I got drunk later that night an blew up her phone till she ansewered.I talked to her for 2 hours on the phone. I called her back to come deal with shit at the house so I could see her. The next dat she called her husband to ask me if I would come spend the night with her. I told ya on Friday.(I pissed her off ) cause i didnt come over right away.she came over on friday to pick me up.She was living with someone that she was dating. then broke up with I asked her if she would be my Girl? She said yes we kissed for the first time we both saw stars an felt those cute little butterflies. Finally I got what I always wanted in life it is my turn to be happy for once. This is how you fall inlove with your best friend of 13years
