well you can add to the stupid list i have messed up the one thing in my life that had made me truly happy and like the idiot that i am i have fu**ed it all up as usual!! so dint mind me here andi dont want you to rate this or leave coments cause it dosent matter what you say or think it is all ready done i have already messed things up so i just wanted to vent so if you dont like it go fly a kite!!!!!!!!!!