Natashia's blog: "Have you ever"

Ok so I found the man that I know that I am suppose to be with but there is one problem, he is married. I don't know what to do. I know that he loves me and I love him but seeing as how he is married that is really tough on this. He is an amazing man. I love everything about him. I don't know what to do. Everyone please comment me and tell me what they think i should do. But the whole story is that he is married has been for about 5 years. The only reason he is still married is because they have kids together. He isn't happy with her but he is happy with the kids. He says that he just doesn't want to leave the kids. Which is understandable. But He doesnt' love her and he loves me. He tells me all the time that he wishes things were different. And that one day he thinks that he will leave her. He says that he is happy with me and that he loves me but I don't know what to do. please help me.....I am so confused. I don't know if I should let go or stay.....

I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek I think about better days And wonder if I'll feel that way again You look at me with those eyes I know so well... always serious, deep, insightful as though you're always in control But not today not now Now you look so scared like for once you don't have an answer I gaze at you looking deep into your eyes Hoping to understand Why you've said those things I wonder for a moment if this is all a dream if I shall wake up in the morning and be relieved you look at me with confusion I have never seen Slowly pull me towards you and wipe the tears from my cheek........

Have you ever started likin someone only to find out they want nothing to do with you? I have and let me tell you sittin here heartbroken sucks, I had a wonderful time with him. He held me and talked to me so sweet and just looking into his eyes made me realize that I didn't need to wait to see heaven all I had to do was look nto his eyes. I saw everything I wanted to see in this mans eyes. Needless to say, I thought he was someone he wasn't and it all turned around to slap me in the face. All I want is for him to hold me and look at me with those amazing eyes again. I know it will never happen and he can't have a relationship. because he can't trust. But I know that if I hold on then It will only get worse on my part. So I am letting go of you, I am sorry it has to be this way, I will miss the eyes that once held me captive, I will miss the touch that made me weak with desire....and I will definatly miss the passion.....To you, you were all I could ever want......the way you touched me was amazing and I hope nothing but the best for you.....