Have you ever met someone and thought to yourself that they werent your type, but yet you gave them time that you took out of your busy schedule just to see what was there cause you seem interested but didnt know why?
Have you ever had someone walk into your life unexpectedly and you fall hard for them?
Have you ever met someone that seemed so true and so real that you let your guard down and let them get close to you?
Have you ever dated someone who you thought in the beginning was just another guy, but yet you got attached and everything seemed right,..like he was the one?
Have you ever fell for all the I love yous? The you are the only one? You are my sweetums? I love you with all my heart? You have no worries?
I have...Then all of a sudden everything that you have experienced comes shattering down..
You start to feel like something isnt right.
You start questioning all the lil things.
You start hearing rumors and getting emails and messages saying he is lying, but yet you continue to hold on.
You save all your emails and IMs that you and that someone had, then you go back at a later time and start to read into things. Then you ask this someone about it and they make up excuses and you continue to hold on and believe every word that comes out of their mouth.
Then that someone comes to you, they become a bearer of bad news..you are devastated. In tears, scared for that someones life. They tell you they have been in a horrible accident. You are going crazy, and you pray every night for that someone to get well.
When all that seems to pass you begin to feel safe in the relationship you and that someone once started.
Until that someone becomes distant, ignoring your emails, your IMs, etc.
You get that gut feeling...you know something is DEFINITELY wrong now. But you cant seem to put your finger on it..
Days go by without a word...
Days turn into weeks..weeks turn into a month...
Then one day someone you have never met comes across your path and says everything that that someone has told you has been a LIE! That horrible accident that he was supposedly in, never happened, that happened to someone else that they knew. That pin he gave you before he supposedly left, isnt really his. Oh and remember how he told you he was going through a divorce, yea well he is still married...
And all of a sudden EVERYTHING makes sense...
Everything that you had experienced was nothing but LIES...and how someone could be sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo low and lie about their ENTIRE LIFE saddens you...and makes you so angry, but yet you have found the closure that you needed to move on!
To know that someone didnt have the BALLS or the DECENCY to be honest is just sad. How can you live a life like that? How could you keep up with every lie and add to it...Do you actually start to believe the lies that you told?
How can you possible live with yourself knowing what you are doing is wrong? Do you even feel guilty about playing with peoples emotions and their heart? How do you sleep at night?
And how can you just sit there and act like NOTHING has happened?
I will never know the answers to these questions...
But I do know this:
You might have broken my heart, but you have made me so much STRONGER and I thank you for that.
I deserve better than you!
I am way to good for you, and you will soon realize that.
I just want to say, you are the one who has to reap what you sew...and remember KARMA is a BITCH..she will get around to you eventually...and when she does..I will be here to witness it and enjoy every minute of it.
And remember "You cant break the girl who thinks nothing of you and everything of herself"
This is MY time to SHINE...
