HOW could i be so stupid how cuold i love someone so much to try and try and try to make them happy to keep trying to make things right to show him the better way out the way things could be different to try and be the woman he wants to be the love in his life to be the one to take away allthe pain to show him love to show someone on so much how much you really do love them and want them in everyway shape and form to be the world to them emontially mantally and physcally to be left broken hearted in pain in shame in dispair with no one nothing left not even diginity to feel so stupid for loving some ne.
how do you replace that with the hate and anger to move on to try anohter day to try with somone else to or move on for whats best to try to even think that there might be a possibily to love someone else when you know that the one love you want you cant have to have to know that no matter how much you put on your sleave that there is nothing AT ALL that you can do nothing but pain and anger to try and hide and move on another day. to keep going to keep your head up to have done it so many times in the past to do it this on elast time but tohave the feeling you can not do it one more time that you dont want to you wantit to end and to have the feelings that this was the end to want so much out of somethinig for it not to end the way that life is telling you it should.WHAT DO YOU DO NOW??????????????? PAIN HATE ANGER I FEEL IT ALL AND ALL I WANT IS LOVE!!!!!!!!! I WNT TO BE LOVED
