Controlling a Caged Animal
I don't want to be
controlled
any longer.
I try to seperate myself,
free myself of these bonds I
hate
so much.
You say you'll stop,
but it continues, more
than ever.
I grit my teeth, bear with
it all that I can.
I can't, I shouldn't have
to.
You think you're right,
but you're wrong.
So very wrong.
What you do to me,
is just like an animal,
pent up in a cage,
abused by its master,
no food, water, or love.
You think it's right,
you believe it's discipline,
but do you ever realize how
I feel?
What I go through?
I don't think so.
I'm caught in a
trap, to be
abused
forever. © Barbara Anne, 2005-06-22
Animosity
The hate you feel won’t go
away. I don't even know why
you bother to stay. I'm here,
though I don't think I'll play.
The rage builds and builds,
poisoning my emotional fields.
Perturbing what my mind wields,
these assholes with their cash
shields.
There's nothing left to satisfy the curiosity. All I'm
left with is the possibility of
improbability. I can't escape
this animosity.
Get you gone! Don't you see
that you were screwed up and
what you did was wrong? I
can show you, I've got the
picture I've drawn.
This icy hot emotion boils
and bubbles inside, taking
me on a hellish ride. So here
I throw the doors open wide.
Take a good look and see what's
inside.
Rushing at you, and gaining velocity, take this shit with
responsibility. Eat your shit
and die righteously. Now do
you see the depth of my animosity?
© Shawn M. Johnson, 2006-03-04
Missing Soul
Scattered in the fire
Is where my soul does lie
Burned by greedy flames
Waiting there to die
Becoming black and crisp
Brittle and broken still
I threw it in with rage
Only wanting to kill
The pain of waking up
And dreading every day
I knew it would be best
To throw it all away
My cold lonely tears
Slowly drown this hole
But it won't fully fill
For I have lost my soul
© Jacqueline, 2005-10-12
Lost Trust
You piss me off
Fuck your lies
Don’t pull that shit
It’s a waste of time
I’ll never believe you
Your words mean nothing
Like broken glass
It’s only good for cutting
So go cut yourself
When you think of me
All the lies you told
You deserve to bleed
I gave you my trust
What a dumb thing to brake
That you can’t mend
It builds over time
Sorry friend
You crossed that fine line
All has been said
But nothing forgotten
To forgive this time
Is just not an option
I’ve had all I can take
No more pretend
It’s over, it’s done
This is the end.
© Life4Real, 2006-01-05
APATHETIC TO LIFE
Look into these eye, what do you see?
Shattered soul, broken imagery
Deceive Me
Allow the lies to roll of your tongue.
(I will believe you, I need you)
EMBRACE ME.
Understand who I am, first hand.
Do you feel it?
Im ice cold
Im lifeless
Im numb
Look into my heart, what do you see?
Black and bare, not a single beat...the world is dead to me
Hurt Me.
Im your rag-doll, toss me around.
(Im yours, use me, abuse me, hate me)
UNDERSTAND ME.
Feel who I am, touch my pain.
Does it hurt?
Its fucking killing me.
My body is dead, my heart is cold.
With my last ounce of strength, I whisper....
I’ve become apathetic to life but most importantly you.
Before I kill myself im going to kill you too.
You made me bleed, you made me cry.
I never had the strength to say goodbye.
I WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME.
YOU ARE THE EQUIVALENCE OF MY VIEW ON LIFE.
I hope you feel my pain, now that you know what I feel like from inside.
I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT BECAUSE OF YOU EVERYTHING ABOUT ME HAS DIED.
Its time for you to go
I cant look at you anymore
I think you understand how I feel now...
Don’t be afraid to die, ill show you how. © samantha, 2005-04-15
DEAD INSIDE
Days they passed on
Nothing changed but the same death inside
I find me between the suicide and hatred again
Old bruises and new wounds...
Worse than I imagined
I guess I'm not happy
Even though I try
Or I wanna be
How should I survive?
Or how must I lay to die?
Dig my grave deep enough to escape
Bury myself under the earth of death and pain
Forget my hope and salvation
They must have lost their ways
No pill for me to ease this memory
Stained in my heart of wicked past
My loved one has gone...
Whatelse should I feel now?
Lost within the tortured life
Darkness seems to be overtaking my actions
I sense my movements without motions
I must have been dead...
Or should I?
I'm just dead inside...
beneath the hatred. © 8892, 2004-04-17
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