httpktbyblogspotcom's blog: "Happiness Seeker"

After all the shit that went wrong with this move, I now am without a job. Fuckin Bob Chocola! He's the DM for CVS around where I live and since he and my old manager Khan are such good buddies he wont transfer me because I had to leave suddenly in Feb. They re both such assholes. Now again I am with out job and money. WTF!!!!! I can not catch a break!!!!!

We it is official. We are moving to Fairfax, VA. Dad's job went through so now I just need the tranfer for me to go through an I'll be set. My only complaint now is the moving part. I am so tired of seeing my stuff in cardboard boxes. Thank goodness most of my stuff is packed. I new this was temporary but DAMN! 2 months is such a short time to be anywhere. I am gonna miss how nice people are here. Everyone has such a good attitude. I know going back to Northern Va is goona suck on that part. At least I know where things are there. Maybe I can catch up with people I used to know. That would be a bonus. Although the guy seen is alittle tougher. Oh well. If i need some I got "big JOE". Hahaha. (buzzzzzzz)

So I am sitting here bored and tired but dont want to sleep. It just means one less day of no work. I have been working my ass of for a place I will never work. To top it all off the District Manager for where I am moving hasn't called me back. I am running ou of time and patience with this damn company's managers. I just wish I had the money to go to my friends in tenn. and start over. I want so much to be happy and it seems to get father and farther away from me. I wake up wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep and when I am up I don't want to do anything productive. Hell I am even considering throwing out everything so I don't have to move it back to VA. When does it get better? I am so tired of being this way. No matter what I do it just gets worse. If I do something for myself, Dozens of things come up and bite me on the ass. And to add insult to injury I lost my damn lisense. I am at the end of the short rope and I like it will never get better. I know I am complaining but it seems the only thing to do at 1:00 in the morning. Wheres that millionare prince that every one talks about? I think hes fucking selfish for not rescueing me from this crap!

Well Its official. I am moving back to Va in about 8 days. This will make it 28 moves in 22 years. how crappy is that! Damn economy! Rent is cheaper but everything else is more. I want to scream and throw a tantrum. How am I every gonna get it togethter it we cant stay in one place?

I just can't seem to catch a break. I am told I have a job but then they loose my drug test! I moved to have a fresh start but it has backfired! I am just worn out! I keep hoping something will happen and help me through but it never does or something bad happens. I feel like I am drowning and no one can hear me. It just sucks that not only does it affect me but my parents too. Its as though this family will never be stable mentally or physically or finacially. The stress just builds and builds and I feel lost. No wonder I have no life. I feel as though I try and try and it just backfires. Whomever said money can't buy happiness was full of shit!!!