T is for "TALK SHIT GET HIT"
i would hafta say that my proudest moment was when i gave a guy a black eye & a fat lip becos he called my brother a"fag".but violence is never the answer for anything--i don't condone it! i just used to have a problem with anger management. i still have a bit of a temper & wild mood swings but nothing compared to when i was younger. i had estrogen fueled outbursts & i didn't know how to handle it any other way. my initial reaction to bad situations & confrontation was just to come out swinging.i got into 2 fist fights with my brother joseph's girfriend when she lived with us becos she stole my stuff & made up lies about me & turned my brothers against me--i had to kick her ass. it's not like i'm proud or think that i'm tough or whatever--it just happened. i have also been in a few barroom brawls.again-i'm not proud of this & i don't think i'm some sorta bad ass becos i've been in a few cat fights. when i was 22 i got into a fight with a girl at a bar. it was my fault. i slept with her boyfriend. but she attacked me so i was just defending myself. she got kicked outta the bar. i did not. i thought this was ancient history but joseph ran into this girl recently & i guess she still wants to fight me again! even tho this was 7 years ago! i'd think she'd be over it by now! i'm like "does she know i'm married now? does she wanna sleep with jamie? will that make her feel better?"joseph just told her i'd "kick her ass again"!!!! becos for some reason joseph is PROUD of the fact that i've been in physical fights! He BRAGS about how "TOUGH" i am!! another time this happened was when my boyfriend at the time had a crazy ex that stalked us. & joseph had warned her that i would "beat her ass" if she didn't leave us alone. so she kept harassing us & confronted us at a bar & i hit her in the face. her head went back like i punched her. she left but she still continued to follow us around but she kept her distance! she stalked us the entire time we were together...that reminds me of another story about this psycho girl that my younger brother joaquin was friends with (she was also my husbands psycho ex & she stalked us for awhile but more about that later...this was before jamie even knew her!)anyway--psycho girl came over & wanted to talk to joaquin one night. (i had no idea he didn't even wanna talk to her. she used to come over to try to con joaquin outta his medication cos she sells pills to people. he gave her a bottle of lithium so she'd go away) she wanted to drink some orange juice that was in the fridge & i told her it was mine. so she went & told joaquin she was gonna fight me cos i would let her have some of my orange juice! joaquin laughed & told her she'd get her ass kicked ! i mean come on! over orange juice! what a PSYCHO! my last act of violence (where i actually struck someone) was when my ex Tim & i had gotten back together. he kept going back & forth between me & his wife. he had filed for a divorce twice, he was fucking with my head & trying to fight with me all the time & i was getting sick of it. one night we got into an arguement & he told me to hit him cos he deserved it (& he did) so i did.he told me to hit him again so i did--even harder this time. later he swore that i punched him but i didn't! it did make me feel a lot better to do that & it probably made him feel better cos of all the guilt he felt about the whole thing. but what did it solve??
& so that brings us back to Pyscho Girl....after jamie & i got togther she stalked us becos she was mad that jamie had dumped her & she wouldn't get over it. she broke into his house & stole $500. she deserves to be punched in the face for that. & all the shit she talked about us & whatever. but i wrote zines about it-"Just Like A Gemini Too' & "Mrs. Noggle". i got over it by WRITING not PUNCHING. she still tries to cause trouble with joaquin cos they are not friends anymore. she is a horrible person & deserves to get her ass kicked for fucking with my family but i think karma will take of all that!! i believe in the saying "The Best Revenge is LIving Well." & i am happy,jamie is happy. my family is doing well...& there is nothing that she,tim or any other evil people that have tried to interfere with my lfe can do about it!!!!!
