Forbidden Crush
by JustMe
What are you doing? I ask myself
As I race back to my computer,
Always checking, have to see,
Just one more time
My heart skips a beat,
When I see his name in my inbox
He lights up my humdrum existence
The one person in this world
I feel truly connected
He understands me like one no one else
A simple flirtation was how it begun,
A few words on a screen
A few emails exchanged
A flirtation, a tease, nothing more, nothing less.
Right?
His face I’ll never see
His voice I’ll never hear,
But in the blink of an eye
He’s become more than a friend
More than a lover.
So very important to me.
Yet it can never be.
Every time we talk,
Every time I read his words--
Simple words, from a gentle, caring heart
A knight in shining armor living in a modern world--
The words come to my lips, unbidden,
Demanding to be heard, to be expressed
But I hold them in
Can never tell him, never utter those three little words
Even if they’re only on a computer screen
Too many hearts will hurt, his most of all
Never do I want to be just another woman
Among those who have broken his heart and wounded his soul
And yet here I sit
Waiting, wondering, longing
Knowing…
…that it can never be
