In the past 6 months i have been dating someone who i thought was right. We would go out weekly or bi-weekly depending on how the time permits. I work two jobs. She works and goes to school. The look in her eyes when i held her. Her head resting on my chest as we stand in the park looking at the sky. It all seemed right. We spoke in honest words or so I thought. We both agreed to keep the relationship open in the beginning. I knew she was eeing someone at work and she knew i was doing the same. At least until she told me that she and he were no more. The time we spent grew and so did the happiness. That is until the stress loads of work and school got to us both. With our time apart it gave me room to reflect on me. I have father-abandonment issues. This can be triggered by simply watching 30 minute to 2 hour shows or movies on the subjects of father figures. We all go through this right? I went to someone i thought i could trust. AT THE WRONG TIME! With her stress and mine we basically fought about nothing. she wouldnt let me speak and out of nowhere we were accusing each other of lying. well i know i care about her enough to make time to see her face , even if it is for 5 minutes. Yesterday i found myself waking in the middle of the night thinking about her. I come to find out the guy she said she had stopped seeing. she had been seeing the whole time. I wonder why I have trust issues. I deserve the jackass across my forehead for this one.
